Silent City, Quiet Hope

Hi,

Look at all those lights. KL really does keep going, doesn't it? Like, non-stop. Funny, how it can be so loud down there, but up here… it's almost… quiet. Not silent, just… muted? Like watching a movie with the sound turned down a bit. 

You'd think all that energy would fill something, right? But it's weird, I still feel.. this space.. like, a little empty. Maybe that's just me. Or maybe everyone feels a little like this sometimes, even in the middle of all that buzz. Wonder if anyone else is on their balcony right now, thinking the same thing? Probably they are too, enjoying the view in silence.

Funny how 'silent' can still be full of tiny sounds, if you listen closely. Like a whisper of hope, maybe? I've been thinking… a lot. About everything. And I'm wishing, really wishing, for some good things to happen. Like, the kind of good that fills that quiet space inside. 

Maybe the silence is a chance to listen to myself, to figure out what I really want. And maybe, just maybe, good things are coming, and they're just taking their time.

And maybe, in all this quiet, the good things are already beginning. Not with a bang, but with a whisper. Just enough to remind me, that even in the vastness of the city, I'm not alone. That even in the quiet of my own heart, there's room for something beautiful to grow.

Surviving Road Trips (with Kids!)

Hi! 

Today I want share about something super important, but don't worry, I promise I won't get all preachy on you. Let's talk about car seats! Yeah, I know, the dreaded car seat conversation. But stick with me, okay? It's for the kiddos, and honestly, for your own sanity too. Because a happy, safe kid in the car means a happy, less stressed driver. And let's be real, we all need a little less stress in our lives, right?

So, here's the deal. I'm a working mom that travels long distance everyday, which means I spend a lot of time in the car with my tiny humans. And let me tell you, those little guys are escape artists. They're like little Bugs Bunny but with more whining. "But, I'm too big for this!" "But, it's just a quick trip!" Yeah, yeah, I've heard it all. But you know what? Car seats are non-negoti. They're like the superheroes of car safety. Think of them as tiny, adorable, but incredibly strong bodyguards for your kids.

I mean, seriously, have you ever seen those crash test videos? They're kind of terrifying, but they really drive home the point (pun intended!). Imagine what would happen to a little one bouncing around loose in the car. No thanks. I'd rather deal with a minor car seat meltdown than... well, you get the picture.

And here's the funny thing: sometimes, my kids actually like their car seats. Okay, maybe not at the beginning but they really like it now. It gives them a good view, and it keeps them contained. Which, let's be honest, is a huge plus for parents. No more little hands grabbing at the steering wheel or trying to climb into the front seat while you're driving! Plus, I've learned the tricks of the trade. I come prepared! Toys, books, snacks.. A whole lot of distractions to keep them (relatively) entertained.

Books? They're like magic for my kids! They've been our go-to travel entertainment since day one.

Spiderman even tags along sometimes – he's a great co-pilot (as long as he stays in his seat!).

Toys are a must-have in our car. They keep the awake one happy while the other one snoozes in their car seat.

They're kids, after all, so some bickering is practically guaranteed. "He's touching my stuff!" "She's looking at me!" The sibling rivalry is intense back there. But you know what? I don't even care. Let's be real, every parent has been there. Sometimes, the only response is 'Talk to the hand.' As long as they're strapped into those car seats, I can handle a little (or a lot) of backseat drama. It's a small price to pay for peace of mind.

So, here's my plea to all you parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, or anyone who drives with kids: buckle them up! Every time. No excuses. It's not just the law, it's common sense. It's the most important thing you can do to protect your precious little passengers. And hey, it might even save you from having to listen to "Baby Shark" for the millionth time. Just kidding… mostly. 😉

Now, go forth and be car seat champions! Your kids will thank you (eventually). And your sanity will definitely thank you.

From Webex Calls to Viva Success: Abdallah's PhD Victory!

Hi,

I'm so thrilled to share some exciting news! My PhD student, Abdallah Eshbeel, successfully defended his thesis last Thursday, February 20th, 2025! I'm so proud of him and I wanted to share a bit about his journey, hoping it might inspire others.

The panels. Abdallah is at the bottom right.

Abdallah's PhD journey started during the thick of the COVID days – remember those? A time we'd all rather forget! Everything was online, and for almost two years, I didn't get to meet my students in person, including Abdallah. Can you believe it? We built our entire working relationship virtually, but we clicked right from the start.

Navigating work-from-home life and different time zones was definitely a challenge, but we somehow managed to get through the trickiest part of research: nailing down his research direction. Alhamdulillah, we made it! Once that was sorted, Abdallah really took the reins and worked incredibly independently, keeping me updated regularly, of course.

Finally, in 2022, restrictions eased up and he was able to come to Malaysia and it was my first time meeting him after two years of Webex calls. It was so great to finally work together in person! Abdallah is such a hardworking, determined, and brilliant guy. I really think of him as a younger brother. So much happened during his time here – from his engagement to his wedding back home! He then returned to Malaysia to finish his studies, which meant being away from his family. And then, during the submission process, he brought his beautiful wife and adorable newborn daughter to Malaysia to be with him for a few months. It was such a joy to see his family!

Beautiful family. And Noor is such a darling baby. 

Now I want to share a little bit about his work! He developed a powerful new method called the Optimal Homotopy Asymptotic Method with Multiple Parameters to solve complex fuzzy fractional problems. This innovative approach has demonstrated remarkable success in tackling a wide range of fuzzy fractional differential equations in various forms. While there's always room for improvement, such as incorporating real-world applications, I'm confident that Abdallah has the skills and drive to further refine his work and make an even greater impact in the field.

It's been an honor to be a part of Abdallah's PhD journey. He's not just a brilliant researcher, but also a wonderful person. With his talent and determination, I have no doubt that Abdallah will continue to make significant contributions to the world of mathematics. So, congratulations, Abdallah! Your hard work has paid off. I'm so proud of you.

Spreading the Love for Math

Hey there!

So, I was chatting with a concerned mom the other day, and she's super worried because her kids, who are young and bright, are already starting to hate math! She was like, "They're practically allergic to numbers!" And honestly, I've been noticing this trend as well.

It's been bugging me a lot lately, actually. Being a math lecturer at a public uni, I'm seeing fewer and fewer students who are actually into math. It's like the excitement just isn't there anymore. And it's a bit scary, you know? Because math is everywhere! It's such a crucial skill for, like, everything! I think everyone needs a good grasp of it. It's like a secret code to understanding the universe, and we're not teaching them how to crack it!

Think about something we all love: music! Did you know music is basically math in disguise? The rhythm? Patterns, just like counting! Melodies? They use numbers to make different sounds, like number lines! And even the instruments themselves – they use mathematical principles to make their sounds. Crazy, right? Music is just packed with math! It's like math is the main sauce that makes music so tasty.

While I'm trying my best to make math fun in my classes, I also think we need to start way younger. In this world of screens, wouldn't it be amazing to have more math game camps and coding workshops in our communities? I really think that would make a huge difference! Games make learning fun, and coding shows kids how math makes all those cool things on computers happen. It's about showing them that math isn't just boring textbooks, it's about being creative and solving problems!

And you know what else I think would be awesome? Showing kids how math is used in real jobs! Can you imagine a kid's face when a baker shows them how fractions make the perfect cookie? Or an architect explains how they use angles and shapes to build skyscrapers? Or even how video game designers use math to create those amazing worlds they all love? It's like math is the superpower behind everything awesome!

I really believe that when kids see how math works in real jobs, it just clicks! It helps people build incredible things, create amazing art, and solve real problems. It's like opening their eyes to a whole new world of possibilities. They might start thinking, "Wow, maybe I could be a game designer!" or "Maybe I could design the coolest roller coaster ever!" That's the magic of showing kids how math connects to their passions and dreams.

So, yeah, math might seem scary or boring to some kids right now, but it doesn't have to be! I really believe we can change this. By making math fun, relevant, and showing kids how it connects to the things they love, we can unlock their potential and empower them to shape the future. It's time to show them that math isn't an allergy, it's a superpower waiting to be discovered!

Ultimately, it's about showing kids the "why" behind the "what". When they understand why math matters, they'll be excited to learn. I believe it's part of my responsibility to show them that "why". And that's a future worth working towards, to ignite that spark. 

Penang Heat and a Touch of Rain

Hi,

Whew, this Penang heat has been something else, hasn't it? It's like mother nature decided to preheat the whole island! It's been so hot, I swear I could fry an egg on the sidewalk (though I haven't actually tried... yet!). The air's so thick you could spread it on toast, and even the shade's no escape - it's like sitting in a warm oven. 

I've been feeling all kinds of fuzzy and mixed up lately, which I'm guessing is a pretty common Penang-heat symptom, right? And of course I was hoping for a little sprinkle of rain! Even a tiny bit would be amazing. And you know me, I've mentioned ages ago how I'm a total rain-o-holic. It's always felt so connected to how I'm feeling, like the sky's giving me a little hug and saying, "Hey, it's okay." 💖

And suddenly, it started raining. As if the sky knew exactly how I felt. 🌧️

It wasn't a big storm, just a little whisper of rain, like the sky was saying, "Psst... I got you." The first drops were so gentle, I almost thought they were just my imagination, but then more came, and suddenly everything was wrapped in this lovely, calming drizzle. The air, which had been so hot and heavy you could practically spread it on toast, instantly turned cool and fresh. 

Of course, being the universe, it couldn't let me get too comfortable. The rain was over almost as quickly as it began – seriously, I think I blinked and missed half of it. But even that tiny sprinkle was perfect. It was like the sky knew I was feeling a bit frazzled and gave me a mini time-out, a chance to unclutter my brain for a few minutes. When the clouds scooted away and the sun peeked out again, I felt so much calmer. The world looked all shiny and new, like it had just had a refreshing shower too. 

I know this heatwave isn't going anywhere anytime soon, but for now, I'm going to soak up this post-rain coolness. It felt like a little secret pact between me and the sky, a quiet understanding that, even if it's just for a few minutes, everything's going to be okay.

So, yeah, this little rain shower, short and sweet as it was, reminded me that even on the craziest, most mixed-up days (and let's be real, we all have them!), there can be these little pockets of peace. Life, just like this Penang weather, can be a bit of a drama queen – throwing heatwaves and emotional tornadoes our way. But then, just like that quick little rain, there are also these surprise moments of "ahhh," these tiny breaks that remind us we're not totally losing it, and that things can get better, even if it's just for a bit. 

And maybe, just maybe, these little "phew" moments are enough to help us survive the bigger storms, to keep us going until the next little sprinkle of sanity comes along. Because, just like the rain (and hopefully unlike the heat!), even the tough times don't last forever. And sometimes, a little bit of quiet understanding from the universe (or maybe just a slightly cooler breeze) is all we need to keep us going.

The Alchemist Within: Finding My Calling in Academia

Hey there, 

Guess what? I finally finished reading "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho. It took me like, almost 6 weeks? Not quite, but yeah, almost. 😅 And wow, what a book! Seriously, so many nuggets of wisdom in there, it's practically a gold mine. Among all, one line that really stuck with me is this one: 'Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams.' It just clicks with me, especially when I think about the exciting, albeit sometimes overwhelming, academic life.

This is the version that I read. Thank YOU! :)

Well, that line is not just about romantic suffering. Although, let's be honest, sometimes I think I'm in a passionate love-hate affair with my work. It's more like this real affection for learning, for digging into things, and this deep-down belief that education can actually change the world. Or at least, change the way my students think about the world, which is a start, right? That's what keeps me going, juggling all the hats I wear as an academic – teacher, researcher, supervisor, coordinator… and a few others that don't even have official titles, like "professional email responder" and "chief coffee maker."😉  Basically, the whole shebang! It seems like organized chaos, or at least, I tell myself it is. 

When I'm in the classroom, I'm genuinely excited to share what I know. It's not just a job; I love seeing that "aha!" moment on a student's face when something finally clicks. It's like, "Yes! You got it!" And that feeling? Totally addictive. It pushes me to find new ways to explain things, to make learning fun, to really connect with each student. Because, let's be real, every class is a mix of learners. You've got some who are already zooming ahead, grasping concepts instantly, and then you've got others who might be struggling a bit more, needing a different approach, maybe a simpler explanation or an extra example. And that's okay! That's the challenge, right? 

And honestly, sometimes I'm the one who needs a simpler explanation! I might have a few "aha!" moments myself as I try to keep up with everything. It's not always easy, but when you see that spark of understanding in a student's eyes, no matter their level, it's the most rewarding feeling. It makes all the effort worthwhile and inspires me to keep learning and growing as an educator. I'm still figuring it out, to be honest, but I'm trying my best

And then there's the research. Oh my gosh, sometimes I get so lost in it! It's like a giant puzzle I just have to solve. I get completely sucked in! It's that thrill of discovery, really. Even if it's something small, like finally figuring out why my model wasn't quite fitting the real-world data. Like, I was tweaking the parameters, running simulations over and over, and suddenly, boom! It clicks. Maybe it was a change in the equation, or maybe I realized I needed to incorporate mention another factor. I'm not sure what, but it's addictive! 

It's like, "Yes! I cracked the code!" (Okay, maybe not quite cracking the code, but yeah, you get the idea.) And that feeling? It pushes me to be a better researcher, to dig deeper, to ask tougher questions. It's not just about the fancy publications (though, let's be honest, those are a nice perk!). It's about contributing my little piece to what we know about the world. It's about adding my voice to the conversation, even if it's just a whisper. It's about the pure joy of learning and discovering new things. Sometimes I feel like a little kid again, just exploring and being curious. It's the best!

Supervising students is another thing I'm really passionate about but suffering some parts of it. It's such a privilege, honestly. It's like getting to mentor these bright minds, to watch them grow and develop their own research. It's amazing to see how much they learn and how much they can achieve. I try to be more than just a technical advisor. I want to be someone they can talk to, someone who encourages them to think critically and believe in themselves. Because research can be tough! There are setbacks, there are doubts, and sometimes you just need someone to say, "You've got this! Keep going!" I try to be that person. 

And it's so rewarding to see them succeed, to watch them present their work, to see them become confident researchers. It's like being a proud parent (without all the sleepless nights, thankfully!). It's inspiring, actually. They keep me on my toes, too! They ask questions I haven't thought of. They challenge my assumptions, and they make me a better researcher and mentor. It's a two-way street, really. I learn just as much from them as they learn from me (or maybe even more!).

And through all of this craziness, I'm trying to grow as a person too! I mean, bottom line is, I can't be a good teacher or researcher if I'm totally burnt out, right? So, self-care is key! (Though some days, "self-care" means just remembering to have a good rest... but.. baby steps!) In all seriousness, I know I need to keep learning new things, stay curious, and nurture my own intellectual fire, otherwise, how can I inspire others? It's a constant balancing act, for sure. 

And.. realistically, it's not only about the perfect lesson plan or the ground-breaking discovery (though, those are definitely nice!). It's about how it all connects. It's about knowing that my work, in whatever form it takes, is making a difference, even if it's a small one. It's that feeling of giving back, of contributing to something meaningful, that brings me the most happiness. It's like, I'm not just doing a job; I'm part of something bigger, something amazing, and that's the absolute best feeling in the world. It's what gets me up in the morning (even on the days when I really, really, really just want to stay in bed for a few extra hours. Do nothing, just be lazy).

So, yeah, that's me in a nutshell. Just trying to make the world a better place. So, as Santiago would say, I am too.. following my Personal Legend, one chaotic day at a time. It's not always easy, and sometimes I feel more like the crystal merchant than the alchemist (anyone else relate?), but I'm trying my best to listen to my heart, follow the omens, and not get too distracted by shiny objects (or, you know, Youtube or Netflix 😁). Wish me luck on my quest for academic enlightenment (and maybe a coffee break). I'll let you know if I find any gold...or at least remember to eat lunch at all. You'd be surprised how often that's a problem. 

Ok, I think that's all for now.

Pardon my super long post. I just can't stop rambling. 😄

Bye!

Chief Invigilator Chronicles: What Really Happens in an Exam Hall

Hello, 

It all began with a top-secret mission to the Exam Unit. I felt like I was carrying the nuclear codes, except instead of launching missiles, these little packets of paper held the fate of 236 students. And then.. the piece de resistance: The body cam. 

This was it – the first time this little technological marvel was being used for invigilation. Talk about pressure! Not only was I responsible for the exam, but I was also a guinea pig for this new system. Suddenly, I was less chief invigilator and more… well, I’m not sure what. A surveillance expert? Either way, this little gadget was supposed to be my shadow for the next few hours. Successfully retrieved the questions (and the cam), I guarded them with my life. I also tried to figure out how to turn the darn thing on without accidentally broadcasting my internal monologue about needing more coffee. Friday afternoon invigilation while sleep-deprived? Come on, send help (and coffee please). 😴

When I reached the exam hall, I checked the seating chart that looked suspiciously like a complex maze of mathematical equation. First things first: the cam. And that’s when I realized: perhaps entrusting this expensive piece of technology to my own fumble-fingered self was a recipe for disaster. Enter my trusty helpers, bless their soul. “Could you… perhaps… be in charge of this?” I asked, handing over the cam with a sheepish grin. “Just… you know… make sure it’s… pointing in the right direction? And maybe… prevent me from doing anything too embarrassing on camera?”. They laughed. Ok, fine. I thanked them anyway. 😑

With the cam now safely in the hands of a responsible adult, it was time for my other crucial role: The Voice of Doom. I cleared my throat, adjusted the microphone (making sure it wasn’t going to give anyone feedback-induced trauma), and launched into my pre-exam spiel. “Attention, everyone! Welcome to the… ahem… examination. Please ensure all mobile phones and electronic devices are switched off and placed in the designated area. Any unauthorized use of these devices will result in… well, let's just say it won't be a fun time. Also, no talking, no sharing, no telepathy. Just good old-fashioned brainpower. Good luck!” I paused, realizing I sounded suspiciously like a villain in a superhero movie. “And… uh… may the odds be ever in your favor.” As if they are battling in The Hunger Games  (I couldn’t resist.) 😅

And then the exam started! The students, a sea of focused faces (and the occasional nervous fidgeter). My job? To be the silent guardian of academic integrity, the watchful eye that sees all (except, hopefully, any rogue notes). And now, thanks to the body cam (and my helper’s watchful eye), so could…well, whoever was watching the recorded feed. Talk about pressure! It's a delicate balance: being present enough to deter any shenanigans, but not so intimidating that you give someone a panic attack. I perfected the art of the "casual stroll," the "intrigued glance at the ceiling" (which actually means I'm checking if anyone's using their phone under the desk), the "I swear I didn't see that" look when someone dropped their pen for the fifth time, and the "please don't let me do anything embarrassing on camera" internal mantra. The highlights? Answering the same question ("Can I go to the toilet?") approximately 100 times.

Anddd finally, after 120 minutes, I announced the final bell! A collective sigh of relief (mine included). Now, the Herculean task of collecting 236 scripts. It's like herding cats, except the cats are made of paper and contain the hopes and dreams of an entire semester. We stacked, sorted  and counted them, I prayed they were all in the right order. And then, the final act for the body cam: its triumphant return to my helper (who probably deserved a medal). The precious cargo (and the cam) delivered! My mission accomplished. I returned the scripts and the cam to the Exam Unit, feeling like a triumphant warrior returning from battle (slightly weary, but triumphant nonetheless). I'm also incredibly thankful that the entire exam period passed without any major drama. Just… exams.

But wait! There's a sequel! Now, the real challenge begins: 236 scripts, each waiting to be graded. I will be entering the marking cave next week. Wish me luck, send coffee, and pray for my sanity. Bye!

Black Cat Wisdom: Positive Vibes & Magic Only :)

Hello there,

Okay, so I was listening to this podcast the other day, and they were talking about Black Cat Energy. And it totally got me thinking! It's not just about spooky superstitions, it's about something way cooler.. At first, I was like, "Okay, cute," but then they started talking about intuition, confidence, and self-love, and I was hooked! 

Who here hasn't secretly (or not so secretly) admired the sheer sass of a black cat? They're sleek, they're mysterious, they're basically the rockstars of the feline world. And let's be real, beyond the whole "lucky or unlucky" debate (I'm voting lucky, because, hello, they're fabulous), there's something seriously captivating about their vibe. It's what I like to call Black Cat Energy, and trust me, you want some of this.

Sexy, isn't she?

Just imagine a black cat strolling into a room like they own the place (and honestly, they kind of do). They're playful, they're curious, and they definitely know how to get what they want (especially when it involves a cozy nap or a tasty treat). Don't we all secretly crave a little bit of that effortless confidence? 😉

Okay, so basically in the podcast, they were saying something about unleashing your inner kitten! Don't be afraid to be a little silly because life's too short to be all serious. Trust your gut feeling, your "cat-tuition" it's usually spot-on. Be yourself, quirks and all, because you're awesome just the way you are. Find joy in the little things. And.. know your worth! You deserve all the good things, so don't be afraid to ask for them because you're a queen (or king)!

But then! They started talking about being a feline fatale, and I was totally hooked! Okay, so, a "feline fatale" is like a "femme fatale" but with extra catitude! A "femme fatale" is that classic mysterious and seductive woman who's totally captivating (and sometimes a little dangerous!), but a "feline fatale" takes it up a notch with sleekness, grace, and a playful purr. Think confident, independent, and totally irresistible, like a cat who knows exactly what she wants. It's all about owning your power, being a little sassy, and embracing your inner feline goddess!

So, how to become one? Here's the purrfect plan: Treat yourself like royalty! Bubble bath? Fancy latte? That thing you've been eyeing online? You deserve it! Surround yourself with your favourite humans, the ones who make you laugh and just get you. They're your catnip! Practice some serious self-care, whatever helps you relax and recharge. It's essential, not selfish! Embrace your playful side and try something new and fun. And finally, own your fabulousness! You're amazing, inside and out, so shine bright!

In short, I understand the Black Cat Energy isn't about being all mysterious and unapproachable (unless that's your jam, then go for it!). Whether you're drawn to the playful kitten, the intuitive cat, or the captivating feline fatale, Black Cat Energy is all about embracing your unique magic. And.. it's more about owning your inner badass, trusting your gut feelings, and rocking your unique feminine power. Basically, it's about finding that sweet spot where you're sassy, sparkly, and overflowing with self-love. You know, own your fabulousness, purrfectly you!✨

Okay, officially absorbing all the black cat vibes! 

 From now on, you can call me Ameowrah. 😉

A Podcast-Inspired Reflection

Hi,

I was listening to a podcast while I was running the other day, and it reminded me that I haven't given you an update on my machine. Well, it's back from its little vacation! Turns out it just needed some serious TLC, no actual repairs needed. And the best part? It only cost me RM150. The same guy from Fitness Concept came out, just like a couple of years ago when it was still under warranty. 

So, back to the podcast! They were chatting about how we get nervous before big things in life. And guess what? A little bit of nerves can actually be a good thing! It shows that you care, right? Like, you're putting your heart into it and want it to go well.  It's like your body's way of saying, "Hey, this is important, let's focus!" And sometimes, that little push of nervous energy can even help us perform better. And that... resonates with me so much.

And you know what's even cooler? If you still care about something after all these years, like, it's in your blood, it means you genuinely love it.  It becomes a part of you.  And because of that, you always want to give it your all, even if you've done it a million times before. You just can't help but try to make it the best it can be. You pour your heart into every detail, no matter how small, because you know it all adds up.😊

Now, where was I? Oh, the podcast! Okay, they were talking about a musician, actually. Someone who'd been playing the violin since they were tiny, practically a part of their DNA. But even after all these years, before every performance, that familiar flutter would return. It wasn't fear, exactly. More like… anticipation? It was their love for the music, bubbling up and demanding to be heard.

So, it got me thinking about something I really relate to as an academic. When they were talking about how we get nervous before big moments, and it really hit home. Like, before a conference presentation, or leading a big event, or even just teaching a new class, I still get those butterflies.🦋It's funny, because you'd think after doing this for a while, it would go away. Doesn't quite work that way for me. My stomach does the butterfly dance every time.😅

But what the podcast pointed out, which I thought was spot on, is that being nervous isn't necessarily a bad thing. Turns out, it can be a positive! And honestly, I think that's kind of beautiful. It reminds us that we're human, and we care deeply about the things we do. It can even give you an extra boost of adrenaline, help you focus and exert your best efforts.

My all-time favourite.

Blooming flowers are delicate and fragile (representing the nervous stage).

But it symbolizes growth, potential, and the blossoming of something beautiful.

And that, is where my head's at today. From elliptical to tulips, podcasts to presentations, it all comes down to passion. Caring. Putting your heart into what you do. And sometimes, that means embracing the butterflies. Now, I'm going to go listen to another one, not running this time. 😁

Crafting Memories

Hello,

Can you believe it's already second day of February? Where did January go?! 🤔 I have a feeling this year is going to fly by, being a whirlwind too, but.. no time to dwell. Let's keep the momentum going!

I'm currently on a short break from work, and honestly? It feels like I've barely escaped! My mind keeps drifting back to the office, like a mosquito buzzing around my ear. But I'm trying my best to stay focus on the kids. School holidays are in full swing, and I need to make the most of this time with them. Wish me luck!

While we were in KL recently, the kids got to experience the MRT for the very first time! The train ride from Putrajaya to Titiwangsa was quite an adventure for them! Their eyes were wide with wonder as we zoomed through the city. It was such a cool experience! However, all that excitement eventually caught up with the boy, and he drifted off to dreamland before we even reached halfway. 😂

 We snagged seats at the very front of the train and the kids pretended they were on a high-speed VR rollercoaster. 

And then, we also spent a night at Splash Mania Waterpark, and let me tell you, kids and water parks are the best combination ever! They could have stayed in that water all night if I let them. Seeing their faces light up on those water slides was priceless.

We created some amazing memories somehow. The thrill of the train rides and the laughter, also the way they'd splash each other and then collapse on the poolside, exhausted but happy.  Both were filled with pure joy and those infectious giggles that only kids can make. And.. happy kids meant a happy mom.😊

Okay, I have just a few more days of this trip! I'm going to make the most of every moment. Then, back to reality and focusing on work.

See you again. Bye!

Up Close and Personal With..

Hi,

Guess what? Something super interesting happened today! hint hint: It involves a national treasure, a serious dose of starstruck-ness, and possibly some mild hyperventilation. Yep, you guessed it (or maybe you didn't): I MET SITI NURHALIZA!🤩

Well, I was spending my public holiday at my brother's house, and there she was. Right there at the entrance, looking like she'd just stepped out of a magazine (or maybe a really good Instagram filter). Siti Nurhaliza herself! Beautiful, looked about ten years younger (how does she do that?!), and positively glowing. My inner fan girl was screaming. Aaaa. 🫠

Okay, so, I tried to play it cool, you know? Act like I wasn't completely freaking out. But inside, I was doing the Macarena. 😂 She was chatting with some people, and I swear, she has this aura of…niceness. Is that even a thing? Anyway, she was so incredibly down-to-earth. Like, you'd never guess she's a national treasure. She greeted everyone with this warm smile, and you could tell she was genuinely interested in what people had to say. We chatted for a bit about… honestly, I have no clue. Something about how to keep being healthy and young. Whatever. 😁

But she was so easy to talk to, so humble. It was like chatting with a really cool, really famous, really nice friend. She took photos with anyone who asked, and even though she must have posed for, like, a million pictures that day, she still smiled and made each person feel like they were the only one in the room. Talk about a pro!

What really struck me, besides the fact that she's basically a goddess, was how… normal she seemed. No airs, no diva moments, just genuine kindness. It completely shattered my perception of what a superstar would be like. It's easy to admire someone from afar, but meeting her in person and seeing how gracious and humble she is, made me appreciate her even more. It was such an unexpected and wonderful experience. 

I’m still pinching myself! I’ll definitely cherish that memory forever. It just goes to show, sometimes the most amazing moments happen when you least expect them. And sometimes, you meet a legend in your brother's living room, on just another casual public holiday, right? 😊

Weather Report : Emotion Edition

Hi, 

Woke up feeling pretty good this morning. Compared to the other mornings that often began with the fog of sleep deprivation, battling the urge to hit snooze button. But no, there's a superhero job to do! Time to get up and be a mom! 🦸‍♀️

As the day went on, clouds started rolling in and I'm hit by a wave of panic. Those upcoming deadlines and unresolved issues creeping back in. I felt a sense of unease settling in. Might need to invest in some serious emotional weatherproofing! Haha. I wish it was that easy. 😁

I spent the afternoon battling these internal storms. The sunshine, briefly peeking through, offered comfort, but the showers continued to fall. Craving the comfort of a warm cup of coffee and some quiet time. Often, I binge-watch something mindless. Always a help.

As evening approached, the clouds thickened, and a gentle rain began to fall. Tears welled up, a release of the pent-up emotions. It felt strangely cleansing, like the earth being refreshed by a summer shower, and creates some stunning rainbows.

Wish I could go back to those days of chasing rainbows and splashing in puddles. Life was simpler then. 🌈☔️

See, even the worst emotional weather will eventually clear up and things will look brighter soon. And.. even the darkest clouds have a silver lining. ✨ I'm holding onto the hope of sunny skies ahead.☀️ 

Sunday Kitchen Comedy

Hi,

As you know, Sundays are my cooking days. I was mentally planning my cooking routines for today. Everything seemed to be going smoothly – I even visualized my delicious favourite breakfast: two perfectly cooked soft-boiled eggs. Easy peasy, right?😋 

Little did I know... Disaster kindda struck.

I boiled the water, put the eggs, then I reached for the pot lid, but couldn't be found. And… well, let's just say it was a case of mistaken identity. Instead of the snug-fitting lid I was expecting, I was greeted by this…thing

It looked like a tiny wok lid, lost and confused on my pot. Upside down. 😂

Oh no, it's stuck! The struggle opening it was real. I tried everything – twisting, jiggling, even whispering sweet nothings to the lid in hopes of convincing it to cooperate. But it was no use. And I was panicking. Needless to say, my culinary masterpiece quickly devolved into a scene from a slapstick comedy. Veggies were flying, steam was rising, and I was starting to resemble a character from a cooking show gone horribly wrong. And to top it all off, I was only trying to boil eggs! Just half-boiled eggs! My goodness. 🤣

In the end, I had to admit defeat. The lid, victorious in its defiance, didn't move even an inch. Okay, knowledge on Newton's Law of Cooling came in handy. Apparently, my eggs had other plans. I had to patiently wait for the trapped boiling water to cool down to room temperature to reduce the pressure, hoping for perfectly soft-boiled yolks. Turns out, I ended up with a pair of miniature cannonballs. Still edible though. Great!😑

But you know what? It was actually kind of funny. Sometimes, the best laid plans (and pots) can go awry. And hey, at least I had a good laugh – and a story to tell. Seems like the right tool for the right job is crucial! Let's make sure we have the correct equipment next time. Jangan asal sebat je apa yang nampak depan mata. Padan muka! 😂

Okay, that's about it! Eating my cannonball now. Be right back. Bye! 

Two Weeks Later: Still Breathing (Barely)

Hi,

So, it's been two whole weeks since I last checked in! Crazy how time flies. Things have been pretty hectic lately, juggling work, family, and trying to remember to take care of myself. It's a constant balancing act, you know? All of those things are super important, and it's hard to know where to even begin sometimes.

Okay, so work-wise, I finally submitted my grant application to the uni – phew! I still need to get on top of marking for the poster submissions and finalize those coursework grades. But good news, I've finished marking the rest of the assessments, so those are ready to go back to the students. Since I'm now chairing a few committees at school, I've got to start scheduling meetings with my team and figure out our plans for the year. It's gonna be busy, but hopefully, things will run smoothly.

And it's such a relief that it's school holidays right now, which means no more crazy early mornings until mid-February! I'm definitely enjoying the slower pace. The kids aren't too demanding, thankfully. A quick trip to the playground near our house is usually enough to keep them entertained. If we get home early enough, I'll try to take them for a walk there. It's a nice way to get some fresh air and let them burn off some energy.

So easy to make this boy happy. Play all day.

My tweenager girl. She's me. 😁

And for myself, urgh, seriously? My running machine decided to take a vacation! I guess it needs a little spa day too. It has been a trooper, this hybrid thing, almost 9 years strong. Fingers crossed the repair guy can work his magic. Otherwise, I'm facing another week of running in place (literally! 😁). Feeling the FOMO already.

Please be good. I need you for at least another 10 years. 😄

Basically, that's all for now. I'll fill you in on more details once I have a bit more breathing room from my current workload.

Talk soon! Bye!

Acts of Self Care

Hi,

It's time for some free-flowing thoughts. I still remember back in uni, I used to love wandering around aimlessly to blow off some steam. At UTM, I'd often make the trek from Kolej Tun Fatimah to Tasik Ilmu, supposedly to feed the fish with leftover bread. But honestly, it was mostly an excuse to clear my head and do some thinking.

In Wollongong, I'd walk everywhere, even though public transport was super easy and I even had a car in my final year. I'd happily walk from my place all the way to Fairy Meadow just for a chocolate sundae. That was a regular habit for me, especially during difficult times.

And if it rained? Even better! I'd get so excited because I knew I'd get to see the most amazing rainbow once the rain stopped. There's something special about Australian rainbows. They are always so huge. I've never experienced anything like them elsewhere.

But lately, I've been slacking off on my walking. I'm still good to walk to my morning classes, but if I have afternoon classes, I usually skip the walk. The heat is just brutal, and I will get grumpy when I'm all sweaty and exhausted. And to make it worse, hungry. Haha! 😆

So, less walking means less time for me to just think and process stuff. And when I can't let go of all this stress, I start getting grumpy. Again. It seems to be a cycle. It's frustrating. Sigh. 

"Now teleport me to Wollongong Harbour, please! And quickly!" 

Hold on, let's not get carried away. It's okay to dream, but let's also be realistic and opt for a breather. Hmm, I think a traditional oil massage is exactly what I need right now. 

My favorite massage therapist is Kak Ana from Telok Ayer Tawar. She creates a truly relaxing atmosphere in her home, with soft lighting, soothing aromatherapy oils, and calming music. But when she starts the massage, she really works those knots out! You won't be able to escape her thoroughness.

Spa-like setting at Kak Ana's.

Okay, it's time for a serious dose of self-love. I haven't been focusing enough on myself lately. A new haircut and a mani-pedi would be the perfect finishing touches.

Till then, see you when I feel better. Bye!

Project-Based Learning with Differential Equations

Hello,

We've reached Week 13, and for MAT223, I have announced the conclusion of our lectures for this semester! We've successfully covered all eight chapters ahead of schedule. The remaining two weeks will be dedicated to course-related activities. Next week, we have Test 2, followed by the deadlines for all remaining assessments the week after.

Final lecture at DK G31. 

I will see half of them again next year for MSG328.

This course has a two-part project investigating the application of differential equations in addressing environmental issues. Students will first submit a project proposal outlining their chosen environmental challenge. Subsequently, they will submit a comprehensive project report detailing their mathematical model, solution methods, solution verification, analysis, and conclusions. The project should demonstrate a strong understanding of ordinary differential equations and their applications in environmental contexts.

To further enhance their learning, students are also encouraged to validate their project solutions using experimental data as an option. This is particularly valuable for students with backgrounds in fields like physics, biology, or chemistry. This hands-on approach not only strengthens their understanding of differential equations but also provides a deeper, more meaningful connection to their respective fields of study.

I am thrilled to see the diverse range of topics that students have selected for their projects. I encourage them to explore their interests and I am happy to support them in venturing slightly beyond the course material if they wish to challenge themselves. As long as the fundamental concepts of differential equations are demonstrated and applied effectively, students have the freedom to choose the direction and content of their projects.

The groups that went above and beyond the course syllabus.

Student reports will be presented in the form of A3 size posters. With 33 groups participating this semester, I plan to showcase the top 10 posters outside my office. This is a tradition that was previously paused due to online learning restrictions whereby all submissions were made in softcopy version. I will reinstate the practice to recognize and celebrate the hard work and creativity of our students.

I'm excited to receive their submissions and finish grading for this course! 

Live, Learn and Do Better

Hello there, finally I'm back! :) 

The past few days have been a whirlwind, leaving me little time to breathe, let alone write. I've initiated a few drafts, but lacking of the right mood to finish them. Hopefully, post ni berjaya sampai ke hujung instead of staying in drafts forever. Hehe. 

Anyway, FRGS application season is here again. Based on the lessons learned from previous applications, I will submit another proposal this time. Believe it or not, this is my fifth time applying for the FRGS. No luck so far, but I'm not giving up! I'm learning with each application and looking forward to refining my proposal. 

This round, I will carefully review my previous proposals, incorporating the feedback provided by the KPT panel. I recently had a productive personal consultation with Dato' Isa, a member of the Science domain FRGS panel. He meticulously examined every aspect of my proposal and provided invaluable guidance on how to strengthen it.

Following the discussion, I gained valuable insights into the shortcomings of my previous FRGS applications. These insights will be crucial in refining my current proposal. I have carefully noted all the advice received and will dedicate significant effort to polishing my application before submission. Semangat sikit kali ni and I want to put all the efforts I can to make the project work. 

While previous rejections didn't significantly impact my research output due to my students' success with other funding sources, I'm now driven by a personal desire for professional growth. Successfully managing my own FRGS project will be a significant milestone, allowing me to expand my research expertise beyond guiding student projects.

Well, based on what I have been experiencing with my unsuccessful research grant applications, I can say that we all mess up sometimes, especially when we're not sure where to go in navigating our life. It's totally normal! The important thing is to learn from our blunders and use them to grow. Don't beat yourself up. Instead, just dust yourself off and keep moving forward. Here's to our success! 💪

Motherhood Moments: Sunday Edition

Hello,

It's a random Sunday update today. I've been missing the spontaneity of writing like I used to when I first started this space. It seems harder to just let my thoughts flow freely these days as I want everything to be planned properly. Dah kurang dah random post about my daily life. Dulu, semua benda pun I boleh bercerita. Hehe. Tapi tak apa la, sesuai la dengan umur yang dah nak mencecah pangkal 4 ni kan? 😄

Anyway, Sundays are usually my stay-at-home days, unless I have other plans. I dedicate these days to do a thorough house cleaning. I regularly take our towels and bedsheets to a self-service laundry, as I don't have a dryer at home. This is especially important for my children, who have sinusitis. High-heat bedding drying is an effective method for killing bedbugs, which can be a contributing factor to sinus inflammation.

Sundays are also my cooking day. I prepare meals to freeze for those evenings when I arrive home late. I try my best to cook at home every day, tapi kadang-kadang convenience foods are also necessary. Especially bila sampai rumah dah lambat, nearly to our usual dinner time at 7pm. Ultimately, my goal is to ensure the kids eat on time and have healthy options. That's what most mothers tend to do, isn't it? 😊

My children have been expecting Sundays as outing day too. We usually keep things simple, like enjoying ice cream, browsing at the bookstore, shop hopping or having dinner at my parents' house. Ye la, hari sekolah tak sempat buat semua tu, weekend kita bagi la chance the kids tengok dunia. 😁

Tips for Shopping Breeze: Prioritize your kids' needs. 

Start with new books! It always works wonders. 😆

Okay, enough rambling! The kids are asleep, the house is clean, and I've got everything ready for school tomorrow. Now it's time to focus on some work for a couple of hours. 

Bye! 

One Incredible Doctor

Hi,

I just returned from my daughter's constipation follow-up. The doctor explained that we need to monitor her closely for at least another year. Unfortunately, it won't improve quickly. Her colon muscles need to be trained to function normally, which can take time. To help, we need to increase her intake of high-fiber fruits and vegetables. This means I need to keep being diligent about preparing fresh juices for her.😇

At the hospital, I bumped into my gynecologist, Dr. R. June George. She recognized me from a distance and gave me a warm, motherly hug, just as she used to do when I was her patient. I was under her care for both of my pregnancies and deliveries. My first child was born through natural delivery, while my second was delivered via cesarean section. Dr. June made both experiences remarkably smooth, almost making childbirth seem effortless and enjoyable.

Conceive both of my children was a challenging journey. It took three years to welcome my first child, and another three years for my second. Throughout this time, Dr. June provided invaluable emotional support, ensuring my well-being during this challenging period.

While pregnancy was challenging, childbirth presented its own set of difficulties. Both my babies were born at 41 weeks, staying comfortably within me until the very end. Even after three days of induction, they were reluctant to make their appearance. Weighing in at 4kg each, they were considered large babies, which made the delivery process more demanding. However, Dr. June's expertise made the entire experience seem significantly smooth.

My gynecologist, Dr. June and Adam, mommy's boy who refused to be born in a normal way. 

So, if you found this post while searching for information about Dr. June, I highly recommend her. She is an excellent gynecologist, trust me!

A New Year, New Challenges

Hi,

It's the third day of the new year, and I'm finally able to sit down and update this. As always, life has been quite hectic with the usual demands. Juggling everything on my plate is increasingly challenging. I need to be extra mindful and implement better time management to ensure everything is completed successfully.

A symbolic.

Among my current responsibilities, supervising PhD students gives the most significant challenges. This involves extensively reviewing numerous drafts, including theses and other academic papers, prior to submission. As a supervisor, I prioritize a thorough review of all drafts before authorizing any submission. However, I also need to acknowledge the time constraints in a student's candidature and try my best to provide timely feedback to ensure they can meet their academic deadlines.

On the other hand, teaching is progressing well. I will conclude the final chapter by Week 13, preparing students for their second test and the final exam. Three assessments have been completed, and three more are due in the coming weeks. This will be followed by a period of intensive marking, including the final exam scripts for all candidates.

In addition to what I'm experiencing, this year, I'm embarking on a new chapter as part of the School of Math's newly formed administration team. I'll be coordinating alumni relations, marketing efforts, and income generation for the school. While I haven't had prior experience in these areas, I'm eager to embrace this challenge and unleash my full potential.

Good luck with everything, Amirah! :)

Goodbye 2024, welcome aboard 2025!

Hello,

Today is the last day of 2024. I feel compelled to commemorate this moment somehow. It just feels right. :)

2024 has been incredibly kind to me. I almost wish I could freeze this moment in time and savor it forever. But of course, life moves on. I anticipate that 2025 might present some challenges. However, I'm confident and all ready to face them head-on.

 I don't typically make formal New Year's resolutions. I find writing them down a bit daunting. However, I do have some personal goals that I'm quietly working towards. I am determined to set my motivation straight and achieve my goals successfully.

So, today concludes the final page of this chapter: 2024. I am ready to bid farewell to the old year and welcome the new. I wish for 2025 to be a year filled with greater meaning and purpose.

Goodbye! :)

Back to Normalcy

Hi,

I'm already back in Penang. We went back a little earlier than initially planned. We made a stop in Kuala Lumpur to visit some relatives before continuing our journey back to Penang. Traffic has been smooth northbound despite some on and off heavy rain throughout Perak.

Thank you Acu for inviting us to your humble abode.

We share the teaching profession. She is a faculty member at UIA.

My son has a mild fever right now. He's been having so much fun playing outdoors these past few days, and now that it's over, he's come down with a fever. Hospital and clinic visits have become a frequent part of my routine in recent weeks. It began with my sister's surgery, followed by my daughter's checkups, and now I'm tending to my son's fever. 😅

Getting back into the routine after a trip can be a bit daunting. There's a mountain of laundry waiting for me, and I need to unpack my suitcase quickly before it becomes a permanent fixture in the corner. Better get started on sorting things out! 😁

It's alright, I have the entire Sunday to complete it. Then, I'll start preparing for the remaining weeks of school before the holiday begins in the third week of January.

Okay, I have to go now. 

I'll be back soon, hopefully before the New Year.

😊

When Students Remember

Hello, I'm back :),

In my previous post, I shared how teaching MAT223 has been incredibly rewarding, particularly in demonstrating the practical applications of mathematics in students' everyday lives. Coincidentally, today I received an email from a former student I taught during the pandemic in 2020.

I taught Jason in MAT223 nearly five years ago, during which we had numerous engaging discussions via Webex. I'm proud to recall how I was able to address most of his questions and cultivate his curiosity. Today, he reached out to me, requesting that I serve as a referee for his postgraduate application. It's truly delighting to receive such a humble request.😇

Given his application to the University of Oxford, I am eager to support his aspirations. While I have always admired Oxford, the opportunity to contribute to a student's application to such a prestigious institution is truly rewarding.

Bodleian Library, University of Oxford. Source: Facebook. 

A place I have always dreamed of visiting. 😊

You know what's the best part of my job? 

Hearing how my teaching has impacted my students. 

It's truly gratifying.

Equations of My Life : Teaching at USM

Hi,

I am finalizing some assessments and notes, and I realized I have a lot to complete in the remaining four teaching weeks. By the way, I haven't introduced you to the courses I teach at the School of Mathematical Sciences, Universiti Sains Malaysia. I'm the primary course owner for MAT 223 - Differential Equations 1, which I teach in the first semester. I also co-teach MSG 328 - Introduction to Modelling with another colleague in the alternate semesters.

MSG328 - One of the most enjoyable courses I've ever taught in USM.

These two courses are my favourites because their content perfectly aligns with my interest in applied mathematics. My expertise lies in this area, and I find immense satisfaction in solving application problems that connect to real-world scenarios. Even though teaching the courses focuses primarily on theoretical approaches, I thoroughly enjoy incorporating interesting applications of mathematics to real-world problems. Witnessing the 'wow' moments from my students is incredibly rewarding.

And I believe due to that, MAT223 is consistently becoming one of the most popular courses in our school. Enrollment numbers continue to grow each year, attracting students from various schools within USM. Some even choose this course as their elective. Hence, I feel a strong sense of responsibility to ensure that all my students enjoy the learning experience in my lectures and ultimately gain valuable knowledge and skills that they cannot acquire elsewhere. 😇

So, regarding my current teaching responsibilities, I need to finalize the date for Test 2 within the next few weeks. Due to the large class size, I'll likely need to schedule it as a night session to accommodate everyone's availability. I aim to conduct the test sometime in Week 14. This will give me ample time to complete the marking before the final exams begin, allowing students to receive their coursework grades before the exam.

Test 1 at DUP C. Test 2 is going to be somewhere here too.

Speaking of which, the final exam schedule is finally out, and MAT223 is set for Friday, 3-5pm. I can already anticipate potential issues that might arise. I've been dealing with cheating issues for the past two years, and resolving them often takes an extra hour after exams. With Friday traffic being prominently bad, I'm already foreseeing a hectic day. So please be calm as always, Amirah. 😇

An unexpected advantage

Hi,

It's Christmas break today, and I'm taking the kids back to their other hometown in Jasin. Whenever we have the chance, I will ensure they get to experience the true 'kampung' life that they don't get to enjoy in Penang.

The first thing I needed to do upon arriving here was to make fruit and vegetable juice for my daughter. She was diagnosed with severe constipation, and I needed to help alleviate it before our next doctor's appointment in early January.

We discovered this problem in January 2023. My daughter accidentally swallowed a plastic button from her toys. We went to see Dr. Hema, a pediatrician in Pantai Hospital Sungai Petani. An abdominal X-ray was performed, but the button wasn't found. However, the X-ray revealed that she had constipation.

3rd January 2023. Almost two years ago. Omg, she's still very small here.

Nearly two years later, one night, she woke me up complaining of leg pain in both legs. I tried to alleviate the discomfort with hot and cold compresses and warm oil massages, but the pain persisted. Worried, I took her to the doctor. Suspecting a recurrence of the constipation issue, the doctor ordered another abdominal X-ray, which confirmed her suspicions.

December 2024. Look how much she's grown in just two years! At this rate, she'll be taller than me in no time.

She was prescribed Forlax by the doctor, this time for a longer duration, to help her clear her colon. In addition, I need to ensure she's consuming a sufficient amount of fruits and vegetables three times a day. The easiest way to do this might be to make her a fruit and vegetable juice and encourage (sometimes forcing needed) her to drink it all.

Today's combination.

I've been doing this for almost two weeks now, and I'm determined to keep it up as long as I can. As moms say, 'You do what you gotta do.' Nothing brings me more joy than seeing my children free from pain.

Look at the colors! It tasted amazing, too.

I find it very therapeutic to experiment with different combinations of fruits and vegetables in my juices. I love playing with the colors and flavors, trying to find the perfect blend. At this rate, I might just open a small juice stall next to Boost! 😁

That's pretty much it. I'll be spending the next few days here, just a typical routine. I will still have lectures tomorrow and a few student meetings. I'm mostly focused on making sure the kids have a wonderful time with family before we head back to Penang.

Till then, see you next time!