Beyond the Screen

Hi,

I finally sat down to watch "How to Train Your Dragon," and I'm still buzzing from the experience. Honestly, I went in with mild expectations, thinking it would be a pleasant enough kids' movie. Boy, I was wrong! From the opening scenes, I was completely hooked, and it kept me captivated right up until the credits rolled. Even the kids were absolutely glued, which, as any parent knows, is a victory in itself!

Keeping these two little humans glued to the screen for two whole hours? Now that's a success. 😎

What truly made this film shine for me was the incredible bond that forms between Hiccup and Toothless. It’s not just a boy and his pet dog (or dragon, in this case), it's pure understanding, trust, and a love that just melts you. Their journey together is seriously moving, proving that the best friendships often hatch from the most unexpected eggs.

And speaking of Toothless… oh my goodness, that dragon! Who knew a "Night Fury" could be so adorable? His design is brilliant, a perfect blend of fearsome power and playful charm. Who knew a dragon built for terror could be such a squishy, adorable goofball? Every wiggle, every curious head tilt, just pure magic. He’s the undisputed star, stealing hearts faster than a dragon can snatch a sheep at The Isle of Berk. 

What really stood out was Hiccup. Forget your muscle-built Viking clichés. He's a bit scrawny, a bit awkward, and definitely not the village's top dragon slayer. But his kindness and charm? Those are his real superpowers. He taught us that true bravery isn't about flexing muscles, but about opening your mind and heart, turning enemies into friends, and showing the world that empathy can literally change everything.

I couldn't help but geek out a little over the deeper layers of Hiccup’s journey? It's basically our academic mission statement! He didn't just accept the facts about dragons, he was a one-man research team, applying critical thinking and observation like a pro. He experimented, he failed (a lot, often with hilarious results), and he kept learning. Sounds typical in academia, right? 😅

His genius was also in his interdisciplinary approach. He blended knowledge with empathy, and err... a little bit of stubbornness. That's a huge lesson for us whereby the best breakthroughs often happen when we stop sticking to just one textbook and start mixing ideas from all over the intellectual and cognitive skills. And his ability to bridge centuries of fear with pure understanding? That's the dream for any researcher trying to connect with complex subjects or diverse perspectives. 

Well, I know it's easier said than done, right? But as Hiccup proved, you never truly know what's possible until you take that leap and prove it for yourself. I'm definitely taking some powerful lessons from this dragon's tale to fuel my own academic pursuits. Wish me luck!

The Balancing Act

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It's another one of those "sky is crying" days, isn't it? The kids, with their happy little splashes, are having the best time in the pool. Seriously, these little humans find joy in the smallest puddles, don't they? I'm over here trying to read a good book, but I'm also keeping one eye on my book and the other on my tiny, wet rascals. It's like trying to do two things at once, or maybe just a good way to get my book soaked. 😅

Lost in our own little world, perfectly in our element. Pure bliss! ✨

Speaking of my little rascals, this weekend is all about them! Tomorrow, we're heading to IOI Putrajaya to finally watch "How to Train Your Dragon." My kids have been bugging me about this movie since they saw the first trailer. Honestly, I think they're more excited about the popcorn and chicken nugget from GSC. 😑

Anyway, switching from dragons to actual brains! My email inbox has been overflowing with requests from people requesting me to guide their Master's and PhD studies. It's like a flood of smart people, all suggesting projects that really match what I like to research. And while it's super nice to be asked, I'm currently thinking really hard about whether to take on more students.

My biggest worry? Time! Adding more students to my already busy schedule feels like trying to squeeze another elephant into my tiny green car. I mean, how do other supervisors do it?! My students pretty much check in with me every week, or at least every two weeks. It's like a never-ending story of "What have you done lately?" (but in a nice way of course!).

Right now, I'm guiding eight PhD students. Yep, eight! It's practically a small army. But good news, three of them are almost done with their first draft, so soon I'll only have five. Ah, that's a relief! Five sounds much easier to handle, which means I might be able to take on one or two more.

Honestly, finding new students isn't hard especially since many of them even have their own scholarships (bonus!). But I've learned to be picky these days. I'm not just looking for smart people, I'm looking for students who really, really want to learn. Maybe a quick chat before they start will help me find those who are truly ready to work hard, and not just those who want an easy ride.

I'm genuinely not sure what to do. Am I crazy for even thinking about taking on more, or is there some secret trick to managing my time better that I don't know about? To be frank, I'm on the fence. 🤔

Okay, that's all for now, folks! My tiny humans are transforming into hungry beasts looking for sustenance, so kitchen duty calls! Here's to a weekend full of good vibes, whether you're chasing dragons or just chasing peace and quiet! Have a great one! 

Late Night Ramblings

Hi,

It's past midnight here in bustling KL and guess what? I'm still wide awake! My bed is probably giving me the side-eye right now, wondering why I haven't graced it with my presence. Maybe it's this new location (my KL abode after a long drive), or maybe, just maybe, I'm so utterly exhausted that my brain has entered a defiant "no-sleep" zone. After a truly epic day, you'd think I'd be out like a light!

Can you believe we're already in Week 14 of the academic calendar? It feels like just yesterday the semester kicked off, and now all my lectures and tutorials are officially done and dusted! High fives all around! Next week, my students face their final hurdle with Test 2, and then it's a two-week sprint to the finish line before the grand finale, the final exams. We're so close, I can practically taste the end-of-semester freedom!

I've also successfully navigated the whirlwind of HFE224 supervision. Their reports are evaluated, presentations are done, and marks submitted. They were such an energetic and cheerful bunch! In fact, I even told one of them, Alyssa Jane, that she should absolutely go for host casting. Seriously, her voice is pure gold, perfect for a news presenter or a TV host. Who knows, maybe I've just discovered the next big media personality!

Wrapped up HFE224 with Danny, Alyssa, Wei Xuan, and Afrina. You guys rocked it. See you next semester for MAT223!

Next up, my four Final Year Project (FYP) students are waiting in the wings to present their work. This year, I'm supervising an all-girl squad, and they are truly a group of smart, hardworking young women. I'm really hoping they learn a ton from this experience with me. Oh, and speaking of them, I just remembered I still need to schedule our traditional lunch! It's a must-do for me, a little celebration both before and after they complete their projects. Good food, good company, and a well-deserved break for all of us!

I'm so glad I managed to wrap up all those meetings before heading off on my KL trip. I hit the road at 3 PM, and thankfully, it was a super smooth drive all the way. After two quick breaks, I rolled into KL around 8 PM. A much-needed dinner stop in Uptown Damansara recharged me, and I finally got home at 10 PM. What. A. Very. Long. Day. Seriously, my body feels like it's run a marathon!

And just like that, an incredibly packed day gives way to a moment of calm, with the KL skyline stretching out before me as I try to unwind. 😊

Can you spot them all? Merdeka 118 standing tall on the leftmost, the iconic Petronas Twin Towers glowing like stars, and The Exchange 106 joining the lineup of KL's giants!

Unusual Saturday Story

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It's the weekend and this is exactly what I've been waiting for! It means I get to spend more of my mornings at home. Usually on weekdays, I'm out the door super early, like around 6 or 6:10 AM, just to beat that crazy traffic to work. My workplace, USM, is about 35 kilometers away. Normally, it's only a quick 30-minute drive, but with heavy traffic, it can turn into a loooong 90-minute journey each way! So yeah, I always try to tweak my schedule to avoid being stuck in the car for ages every day.

So anyway, guess what exciting adventure I embarked on Saturday morning? Forget scaling Mount Everest or discovering ancient ruins. I faced my fears and headed to Pathlab for a blood test! Now, this wasn't just any spontaneous decision. The last time my precious bodily fluids were analyzed was way back in 2022. Yes, you read that right, three whole years ago! 

You see, I'm a firm believer that while the outside might look like a perfectly tuned sports car, the engine underneath could be running on fumes. So, armed with curiosity (and maybe a tiny bit of apprehension), I marched myself into Pathlab for a full health screening. After all, what's a little prick for peace of mind, right?

And get this, they're having a deal so good, it's practically a steal! We're talking 62 complete tests, plus 10 cancer markers, and a HST Test, all for a mere RM357. That's like getting a VIP pass to see what's happening inside for the price of a fancy dinner! Seriously, you might want to check out their Facebook page because deals like this don't come around every day. 

Pathlab's promo runs until June 30th, and I added RM60 for the HST test.

Now, the waiting game begins. I get to pick up my results on Wednesday, and I'm crossing every finger and toe that everything's going along nicely in there. 🤲

But my day of excitement didn't stop there! As the sun began to set, I swapped my curious medical patient hat for something a little snazzier and headed to the Math Society gala dinner. From vials of blood to equations and algorithms, my Saturday was truly a mix of everything!

With Nash, the head of MathSoc who's a huge help to the school and me.

Recently, I've been spending quite some time working with these smart students. They were incredibly helpful in so many ways. I knew that showing up at their important event would make them incredibly happy. And honestly, it made me happy too! Sharing dinner with them and seeing their joy was really heartwarming. I remember being exactly where they are now, full of youthful energy and big dreams. Events like these aren't just about food; they're about celebrating hard work, making new friends, and creating memories that stick with you forever. 

It was a genuinely fun night, full of laughter and a pleasant trip down memory lane to my own student days. So, that was my Saturday, a perfect blend of health check-ups and heartwarming connections! All in all, a pretty epic day.

Right now, I'm currently enjoying my best after midnight life, serenaded by the washing machine as I try to get some writing done. Guess a Mom life never truly clocks out, does it? And always include a laundry basket! 😂

My Mid-June Mix-Up!

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Okay, here we go! It's me and my words again, and honestly, I'm a little bit confused right now. I'm feeling so torn in between so many things, and it's just so hard to make decisions on stuff that feels way beyond what my brain can even process! Some things really need a good chat, but if that discussion doesn't happen, well, it's just so tough to make a smart choice. But you know what? It's okay, let's just forget about it for now!

Speaking of other things, get this: I accidentally tripped over my ankle yesterday! Well, that's just typical me! I can be quite clumsy sometimes, always keeping things interesting!😂I thought it was nothing big, but somehow the pain has stuck around. It's not like, super painful, but it's definitely there. Fingers crossed the pain decides to pack its bags and leave real soon!

Anyway, the third week of June is finishing up, and this month has been absolutely jam-packed! My personal calendar is probably the fullest it's ever been. Juggling everything is definitely a challenge, but hey, I'm still doing good so far! 

Whenever there's a school event, you can always count on seeing these faces there! They're my amazing crew! 

Alright, weekend, let's do this! My list is already packed with plans, and I'm totally ready to rock it! Until then, have a wonderful weekend everyone. Catch you later, bye!

Seizing the Day

Hi,

Good morning from Penang! It's Tuesday, and while there’s no lecture on my schedule today, my calendar is already buzzing. I’ve got a long list of tasks staring me down, and the day is shaping up to be a true test of focus and time management.

My view: Soaking in the sky's simple beauty.

You know those days when you look at your schedule and wonder how you’ll fit it all in? Today is one of those! Every viva on my calendar means four dedicated hours are set aside. That leaves just a few precious hours for everything else. My day is packed with back-to-back student meetings, and later, an important Zoom call with a potential research collaborator. My fingers are crossed that everything turns out to be fruitful today – I'm pouring a lot of energy into these interactions!

As I wait for my first student meeting this morning, I'm taking a moment to simply write. And let me tell you, it feels so good to put thoughts down. It’s funny how we communicate, right? There are basically two ways to share what’s going on in your daily life. One is talking to a person, and for me, I find comfort in connecting with you, my virtual readers.

Sometimes, life just doesn’t allow for much time to chat with others, not just about work, but about life in general. But I truly believe it’s incredibly important to find a way to express yourself. Whether it’s a quick chat with a friend or scribbling notes in a quiet moment, these connections keep us grounded.

So, as I dive into this busy Tuesday, I'm grateful for these little pockets of time to reflect and share. Wish me luck for a productive and rewarding day! And to all of you out there, I hope you have a fantastic and fulfilling day too, wherever you are! 

Aligning My Stars

Hi,

It's another night for some serious thinking, though not that serious. I rarely get the luxury to sit down and truly reflect on myself, so when the opportunity arises, I take it. I'm writing this down so my future self will know that I was also taking care of 'her' despite all the other responsibilities I'm juggling.

The last few days were a bit chaotic. I was working on something that didn't quite turn out as planned. It was a bit disappointing at first, especially after investing so much effort, to see things not go according to plan. However, after a thorough discovery session regarding my readiness, I've decided to slow-cook this idea, perfecting its flavor so it truly serves the subject's best interest, not just my own.

It's somehow been a powerful realization that some things are best done slowly, like a perfectly brewed cup of coffee. Building a strong foundation is key, and the biggest lesson for me has been to truly understand my "why." Am I doing this for the sheer joy of personal gain, or is it for the bigger picture, to genuinely benefit others? Turns out, the latter feels way better!

Once I made that decision, the universe apparently got the memo because everything suddenly started to align. Like today, I unexpectedly met two secondary school teachers from the "Pengetua in training" program, Ms. Lam and Mr. Lem.

A brief encounter with Ms. Lam from SMJK Sacred Heart, Balik Pulau and Mr. Lem from SMK Taman Sejahtera, Bukit Mertajam. 

They basically popped out looking for opportunities to collaborate, and somehow, the cosmic GPS guided them right to me! I was absolutely thrilled to cooperate, mostly because I know I could gain so many secret weapons from their experience in teaching SPM Mathematics AND Additional Mathematics, two most hated subjects for SPM candidates. Think of it as a Jedi training for my brain! 😂

And just like that, I feel like my direction is finally set and clear. I need to take some time to strategically mapping out my next moves, focusing particularly on solidifying the groundwork. I'm currently so happy and excited about this path! 😊

Alright, enough thinking for tonight. It seems stargazing really means a lot to me. Have a wonderful weekend, everyone! Catch up soon. Bye!

An Eid al-Adha Tale

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Happy Eid al-Adha, or as we call it here, Raya Haji or Raya Qurban! While many are focused on the Hajj season and the sembelih lembu (it's a public event!), I'm mostly excited about the public holiday perks. Come on, who doesn't right? 😉

Guess what, I kicked off Raya night with a movie marathon at Gurney Plaza – the only spot still showing "Mission Impossible: The Final Reckoning", while the kids were busy with "Karate Kids Legends." That night outing was a blast for all of us, although quite unexpected for the night before raya!

As usual, every Raya Qurban, kids have been waiting to be the spectacular of their Tokwan doing the sembelih. Especially Adam, I still remember when I feel like tying him up because he wanted to poke the cow's eyes. Oh my Adam. 😂

Tokwan and his little apprentice! If I don't keep a close eye on him, he'll be on top of that cow in no time.

And speaking of personal victories, today marks the glorious return of my fingernails! As a qurbani this year, I've been on a 10-day no-cut challenge for hair and nails. So, get ready for some serious clipping today! 😁

So, that's my Eid story in a nutshell! I'm making the most of this holiday until Monday, then it's back to reality. Hope you had a truly blessed one!

The Little Boss in Me

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It's late, but the hum of the washing machine signals my designated "thinking and writing" time! There's something truly therapeutic about these quiet moments, especially when I get to spill all the thoughts that have been renting space in the rooms of my brain onto the page. Seriously, I always feel so much lighter and clearer after I write.

Life can be a funny thing, right? We're all out here trying our best, juggling responsibilities, chasing dreams, and sometimes, trying to figure out if that weird noise in the car is serious or not. Amidst all this, there's often one tiny little thing that trips us up more than anything else: ourselves. More specifically, that sneaky little thing called ego.

Peeling back the layers of my ego through self-reflection.

Imagine your ego as a mini-boss inside your head. It’s the part that really likes to be right, look good, and maybe even show off a little. It’s like that friend who always wants to choose the restaurant, even if you’re craving sushi and they know you don't favour pizza. Sometimes, this mini-boss gets a bit too loud, and it stops us from seeing things clearly or making smart choices.

For example, maybe you're trying to decide on a new project at work. Your ego might whisper, "Just say yes! You're super capable! Don't let anyone think you can't handle it!" even if deep down, you know you're already swamped. Or maybe you messed up, and your ego shouts, "It wasn't your fault! Blame the coffee machine!" instead of letting you learn from the mistake. It’s in these moments that your ego can actually keep you from making the best decision for you. It pulls you into its shadow, where you can't see the full picture.

So, how do we get this mini-boss to chill out and let us lead? It all starts with being honest with yourself. And I mean really honest. Not the "I swear I only had one cookie" kind of honest, but the "Okay, I totally ate the whole box, and I regret nothing (or maybe everything)" kind of honest.

Once your ego learns that you're in charge – that you can see through its little tricks and make decisions based on what's truly best – it starts to relax. It’s like a pet that finally understands you’re the one holding the leash (and the treats!). When your ego accepts that you're the one in control, it stops pushing you to hide in its shadow. Instead, it lets you step into the light, confident in who you are and the choices you make.

Remember, this isn't about getting rid of your ego entirely (we all need a little self-confidence!). It's about teaching it to be a helpful teammate, not a bossy tyrant. So, next time you feel that little voice trying to steer you wrong, just give it a gentle nudge and remind it who's truly in charge. You've got this!💪

Big Sister's Pride

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This post is especially for my wonderful younger sister, Fatin! Don't let her petite size fool you – she has the biggest, most unstoppable drive when it comes to her dreams.

Since I was little, I always wished for a younger sibling, and then she came along, making me the official big sister in the family! She's the third in our lineup, born four years after me. 

I remember taking my big sister duties super seriously, whether we were at home, at school, or practically anywhere else. That habit definitely sticks around, even now that we're all grown-ups – my younger siblings still come to me for just about anything!

Speaking of which, she once told me about her interest in working for herself, right after graduating from UIAM. She asked for my two cents, and I told her, "Go for it, if it makes you happy!" But I also remember saying, "Whatever you choose, make sure you really rock it!" And guess what? She totally did it!

That big sister role? It totally sticks with you, no matter how old we get!

She decided to focus on becoming a confinement lady, giving new mothers the best care possible. Alhamdulillah, she's been doing that for over 10 years now, and she has really built an amazing reputation for herself in the industry. Her dedication is so inspiring!

We might have totally different personalities, but we share one big goal: making our parents proud. And honestly, that's what truly counts! 😊

Seasons Shift, People Shine

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Did you know that June 1st is a really interesting day, not just for the calendar, but for nature too? Today marks a big meteorological change in the weather around the world. If you're in places like Europe, North America, or most of Asia (the Northern Hemisphere), you're officially welcoming summer today! That means longer days, warmer weather, and lots of sunshine. It's a time for outdoor fun and vibrant energy.

But down south, in places like Australia, New Zealand, or South America (the Southern Hemisphere), they're actually welcoming winter! I personally love the cold winter in the South. It's not usually as harsh as some northern winters, but it's still nice and chilly, especially near the beach. It’s perfect for me!

Winter in the South often means it's time to get cozy at home. You've got every good reason to just relax in your warm house, maybe in your favourite pyjamas, enjoying the heater without having to pile on layers just to go outside.

This cool switch in seasons makes June 1st even more special for all the amazing people who were born today. Just like the changing weather, these folks bring their own unique warmth and spirit into the world.

Whether they're as bright and lively as a summer's day or as comforting and cozy as a winter's evening, people born on June 1st have a special charm. They add their own bit of magic to life, whether it's through being creative, kind, a great leader, or just by bringing joy to those around them.

So, as we notice the seasons changing today, let's also take a moment to celebrate the wonderful people in our lives who have a birthday on this date. To all the fantastic June 1st birthday folks out there, no matter where you are or what season you're enjoying: Happy Birthday! I hope your day is full of happiness, warmth, and everything that makes you feel loved. 

The People Who Stick

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Last night was one of those nights where my mind wanders back to the incredible people who've truly shaped my journey. I'm a firm believer in holding onto the connections that matter, especially those who leave a lasting imprint on my heart.

And among those cherished memories? My amazing girlfriends from my Wollongong days. Their stories often pop up in my "Most Read" posts, and each time, I get lost in those happy, carefree moments we shared. I can't imagine what my time in Wollongong would have been like without them. 

Bondi Beach, Australia Day 2012. What a vibe! 🇦🇺

These girls were there for all the good times, but even more importantly, they stood by me through the tough stuff. Remember how I'd walk over two kilometers, from Catherine Street all the way to Fairy Meadow, just for a McDonald's chocolate sundae whenever I was having a rough time? Well, these amazing girls were always right there with me, every single step of that delicious, misery-curing journey. 

And on those truly tough days, when I'd ask one of them to join me at the beach, no matter the hour, one of them would always be right there by my side. No questions asked, just their quiet company. They let me heal in my own way, but always, always, they were there.

It's easy to welcome people into your life during certain periods, but you never forget the ones who show up when you truly need them. But it's not just my Wollongong girls. There are some others who have left their mark, who saw something in me I didn't even see in myself. Guiding me through confusing times with wise words and quiet encouragement, the ones I can share anything with, knowing they'll listen without judgment. 😊

Trading Penang Pace for Jasin Peace

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Right now, I'm actually writing this from Jasin, Melaka! I'm back here for the school holidays. The last time we were in this cozy kampung was during Hari Raya. And well, here we are again! My main goal? Making sure the kids have an absolutely amazing time with Atok and Nenek at one of the most peaceful places in Malaysia.

Rainbow spotted on the way back to Jasin! Absorbing all the colorful good vibes to help brighten things up.

Fun fact time: Did you know Jasin is one of the 20 most happiest cities in Malaysia, recognized as part of the Malaysia Happiness Index? And it's been on that list almost every single year! It's really true; it's super calm here. You hardly see many cars. At a traffic light, there are usually no more than five cars waiting. If you see more than that, something's probably up – seriously, go check!😂 

Another cool thing I've noticed is how they build the houses in the kampungs. They all look so neat and spread out evenly, which is really pleasing to look at. So, if you're ever wondering the secret to a happy life, I'm pretty sure it involves quiet roads and perfectly spaced houses. It's definitely why the folks in Jasin seem like such happy people! 😄

Coming from a super busy place like Penang, it's really nice to just relax and soak in the calm vibes here. My life often feels like a constant race, and sometimes I just wish I could press pause and do things at a slower speed. Even though my body and mind can handle the busy life, deep down, I really want a simpler, more peaceful life.

But that dream probably won't happen until my kids can manage things on their own. So, maybe in, like, 20 years? I've even heard that being a mother doesn't really stop, even after your kids get married. Aaaaa! I still have a long way to go. 😩 But please, kids, let me at least enjoy my golden years with some peace and quiet, okay? Just a thought!

Now, you might be thinking, "Wow, what a relaxing break!" And it is, for the most part. But for me, the working mom life continues its usual rhythm. Even though I'm in a peaceful kampung, work will be as usual. Like today, I've still got my lecture and tutorial, just like any other week. Plus, I'll be busy panelling a few seminars on both Thursday and Friday. 

So, while this "break" feels like a mini-vacation, it's really particularly for the kids. For me, it's more like a change of scenery while the work grind resumes right on schedule. Anyway, that's life for now! Just embracing the chaos and the calm, although not quite a full break for Mom. 😊

Why Less Can Be More

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Alright, it's me again! My brain decided to open up for another round of slightly random ramblings. The past few weeks have been a whirlwind. I just wrapped up a marathon of three PhD vivas in three consecutive weeks. Yes, you read that right. Three. In a row. 💆

My main job became "professional thesis reader," and while I genuinely do enjoy diving into the depths of new research, let me tell you, when it comes to writing those examination reports? That, my friends, is a truly daunting task. It's like trying to summarize an entire epic novel.

Now, this might sound a bit controversial coming from an examiner, but I sometimes scratch my head wondering why a PhD thesis needs to be built like a brick house. My personal philosophy, especially in my role as an examiner, is to help make a thesis better. Not just thicker.

I'll never forget my own beloved supervisor. He had a knack for blunt honesty, and he once (lovingly, I think) called some of my early drafts "rubbish." His advice? "Remove them and focus on the contribution materials only." That tough love led to my own PhD thesis clocking in at a rather 120 pages. It was lean, mean, and hopefully, packed with actual novelty.

Then I look at most of the theses I examine these days, and they often sprawl across 250 to 300 pages. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying a thick thesis is inherently bad. But it makes me wonder: why spend precious time meticulously crafting pages of "unnecessary things" when you could be shining a blinding spotlight on the main novelty and true contribution of your work? 

It's like baking a magnificent cake but spending half your time decorating the box instead of perfecting the flavor. Just a thought from your friendly neighborhood thesis minimalist!✌

Operation: Bye-Bye Bikes!

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Hey there, lovely readers! How's everyone doing? I've been bursting with stories to share lately, but finding the perfect "writing mood" feels like searching for a unicorn on a Tuesday. So, naturally, I ended up writing zilch. But since scribbling down my thoughts is my go-to therapy, here's a quick update from my corner of the world tonight.

So anyway, to the brilliant students who've somehow stumbled upon this little personal  space of mine – hello there! I hope you find something in these musings that sparks a tiny bit of inspiration. Trust me, I've been exactly where you are, back when the biggest stress in my life was whether I'd ace that next exam. If you're feeling the academic pinch right now, I totally get it. But honestly, five years from now, you'll look back at these university days (even the tough ones) with a fond smile. Those were the good old times, even if they felt like climbing Mount Everest backwards at the moment! 😂

Now, for a little adventure I embarked on with our fantastic school secretaries, Kak Siti and Azizah. Our mission? To reclaim our building's main entrance from the ever-multiplying motorcycle invasion. Seriously, it felt like they were having a convention out there! We sent out emails, pleaded, reasoned, and even tried staring intently at the bikes hoping they'd just poof disappear. No dice. Our main entrance was starting to look less like a grand welcome and more like a motorcycle parking lot. Urghh.

Then, like a lightning bolt of brilliance (or maybe just sheer annoyance), an idea sparked: pots and plants! Our cunning plan is to fill those empty, bike-magnet spots with lovely greenery. The hope is that when folks see a charming pot brimming with life, their common sense will kick in. They'll realize, "Oh, maybe I shouldn't park my thunder-steed here after all." Unless, of course, they're truly allergic to greenery and good manners. Fingers crossed, in the next few weeks, our main entrance will be bike-free and beautifully green.

I've put in a request for a small desk right in the main office with these two. Consider my job description officially evolving! Haha.

So, Kak Siti and Azizah, bless their plant-loving hearts, went on a plant-finding spree. When they told me the grand total, I might have swallowed my tongue a little. "Okay, okay, I'll handle the finances, you just focus on making our entrance fabulous!" I declared, channelling my inner fundraising aura. Believe it or not, I actually managed to get our little pots and plants project funded by my incredible colleagues! Huge shout-out and a massive thank you to everyone who chipped in for our little green revolution. Here's to banishing bikes and welcoming more green goodness! 😁

Alright, that's my scribble for the night! It felt good to get some thoughts down, even in this quick burst. Catch you all next time, whenever that may be. Take care! 😊

The Power of "Little" Time

Hi,

My morning kicked off with purpose: an early project meeting with students to get things moving. As soon as the meeting concluded, I was off to grab potluck goodies for Adam's school. You know those mornings when you're just on? That was me today!

Then came the highlight: diving into the Haji simulation at Adam's school. Wow! Just picturing all those precious little ones in their crisp white ihram and abaya is enough to melt anyone's heart. It was truly a sight to behold. And let me tell you, the teachers poured their hearts and souls into creating such an immersive experience. 

From the charming "aeroplane" ride (in Pakcik's van, of course – too cute!😍) to the miniature sembelih lembu (don't worry, it was symbolic!), they went the extra mile to bring such a significant cultural experience to life for the kids. It’s moments like these that make you appreciate the dedication of educators.

And then there's Adam, my quiet superstar of the day! Later, I discovered he was leading the team and even taking on the role of "cutting the cow" (in miniature, of course!) without a single word beforehand. It's those unexpected moments of quiet insight from your kids that truly make parenting such an incredible adventure, isn't it? He's clearly a boy full of delightful surprises! Adam, if you ever read this, please know I'm always incredibly proud of you, even when you send my heart rate soaring!

Adam was a star, and the tiny cow stole the show with its cuteness!

Snatching some quick smooches before heading to my lecture. It's a huge perk having my office just a three-minute hop from Adam's school, allowing me to be everywhere in a flash!

To squeeze all of that—including an hour of active participation in the simulation—into my morning before a 2-hour lecture at 10 AM? That's not just time management, that's pure magic! I literally ran everywhere from 8 AM to 12 PM, getting so much done in just four short hours. It really proved that even a "little" amount of time, when you're focused and driven, can yield huge results.

Now, as I prepare for school pick-up and then finally settle into my office, I'm going to take a well-deserved moment to breathe deeply and savor the incredible productivity of my morning. I've definitely earned that calm and focus for my afternoon tasks, the ones that don't require me to be constantly on the move!

What an inspiring example of how to tackle a busy day with grace, energy, and an open heart! I'm not just managing time; I'm making every moment count, especially when it comes to supporting my loved ones and embracing life's rich experiences.

First Lecture Bliss

Hi,

Well, hello there, second half of the semester! Just wrapped up my first lecture for Introduction to Modelling, and honestly, I'm buzzing. This isn't just any math course; it's where those tricky equations actually decide to behave and show up in real life. My goal? To make sure these students fall head over heels for it, just like I have. 

We're talking about those glorious 'aha!' moments where a lightbulb practically explodes above their heads. If I can get even one student to excitedly declare, 'Oh, that's why we needed to know proportionality relationship!', then my job for this week is done. Fingers crossed they enjoy it as much as I do!

Now, here’s the fun part: this is a 'compulsory elective' for the School of Math. Sounds like an oxymoron, right? Basically, it means fewer students, which is fantastic! Gone are the days of talking into a void of hundreds, wondering if anyone beyond the front row focused on my explanation of difference equation (Hello, next semester!😭). 

This class is shaping up to be wonderfully intimate, almost like a cozy math club where everyone gets a turn to shine (or at least ask the really tough questions). We're talking two-way communication, lively discussions, and hopefully, fewer blank stares and more collaborative head-scratching that leads to breakthroughs.

Even better, it's the same gang I had for Differential Equations 1 last year, just a few less of us this time around. It’s always good to see familiar faces, even if we do play a daily game of 'casual hi-and-how's-it-going' in the hallways that usually ends with me subtly asking them about their upcoming exams. 

But seeing them in the lecture hall? That's when the magic happens again. I swear, I chat with them like they're my younger siblings – complete with the occasional gentle (or not-so-gentle) nudge to 'pay attention, this will be on the exam!' and the obligatory 'have you eaten yet?' queries. It’s a connection that goes beyond textbooks and theorems, and it’s genuinely one of the best parts of my week. 😉

And the setup? Perfect! A smaller lecture hall, seats practically on top of me. I can actually see every single face – no hiding in the back row for this lot! Plus, it makes taking attendance on eLearn a breeze. Not only can I spot the truants trying to pull a fast one (you know who you are!), but I also love calling out names. 

I've always had a soft spot for lecture halls like this. It's got that timeless, cinematic feel.

There’s something about a lecturer remembering your name that just makes you feel seen, doesn't it? It's not just about marking you present; it’s about acknowledging you, connecting with you, and building a rapport that hopefully makes you feel comfortable enough to ask anything, no matter how 'silly' you think it is. My personal challenge: memorize everyone’s name by Week 10. 

By the end of this semester, I want them to not just understand mathematical modelling, but to also feel like they've gained a personal cheerleader for their academic (and maybe even life) journey. Wish me luck – and maybe send me some flashcards!😄

Workplace Workouts

Hi,

Guess what I got up to at work recently? Our school's Jawatankuasa Kesihatan dan Keselamatan decided to kick things up a notch with some morning exercise, which we've affectionately dubbed "Senam Seni" – especially for the female staff. And let me tell you, I have a feeling this is going to be our new monthly ritual. It's just enough to work up a good sweat and chase away that dreaded "office syndrome" stiffness. Score!

Sweat, smiles, and feeling 20 years younger with Kak Zah the instructor and the gang! What a blast! 😆

The usual suspects, showcasing the wonderful diversity of our school's Malay, Chinese, and Indian academics!

So, what exactly is "Senam Seni"? It's a dynamic 30-minute exercise routine that beautifully blends fitness moves with the rich complexity of Malaysian ethnic dances. Imagine grooving to rhythms inspired by Malay, Chinese, Indian, Punjabi, and even the vibrant indigenous dances of Sabah and Sarawak, all in one fun session. It's a truly interesting and energetic way to experience Malaysia's diverse culture while getting a great workout!

"Move it like Siti Nurhaliza," they said. We tried, result may vary! 😂

It instantly took me back to my younger days when aerobic dancing was basically my daily devotion. Back then, my biggest worry was probably whether my commitment to my studies was just enough to justify spending the rest of my time on all my passions. Finding time for those passions now? That's a true luxury, isn't it?

So, when this "Senam Seni" idea popped up, I signed up faster than you can say "work-life balance"!😁 This isn't just about getting our bodies moving; it's also a fantastic way to bond. Whether you're an academic juggling complex theories or an admin wizard keeping everything running, our jobs might be totally different, but we can absolutely have a blast (and probably laugh at each other's questionable dance moves) together.

It's a fantastic opportunity to stay healthy and inject some fun into the workday. The only minor detail? On "Senam Seni" days, I definitely need to remember a full change of clothes and book a shower slot. Because, trust me, the amount of sweat generated is nothing short of overwhelming! But hey, a little post-exercise glow (and possibly a slight sheen) is a small price to pay for fun and fitness at work, right? 😉

My Universe in Motion

Hi,

Okay, imagine getting a compliment so breath-taking and appreciative it's like 'the universe in ecstatic motion.' How do you process that? It honestly felt like a little piece of stardust, pure sunshine, just gently landing right there in my inbox. My jaw might have done a little happy drop, and I probably did a quick mental check to ensure I hadn't accidentally worn my blouse inside out today! 😂

Now, while my inner child was absolutely ready to throw a glittery party (because, truly, who wouldn't want to embody a universe?), my very practical self immediately thought, "Me? Are we talking about the same person who just spent twenty minutes looking for her favorite hair tie, only to find it on her wrist?" But then, the beauty of the compliment really began to settle in. And it sparked something wonderfully thoughtful inside me.

I have this overwhelming feeling, this urge to somehow hold onto every single light I see in the vast universe.

What does it even mean to be "the universe in ecstatic motion"? I reckon it's about being vast and full of potential, like the cosmos itself. And the "ecstatic motion" part? That's the joyful, energetic, vibrant flow of life. It's moving forward with passion, even when things are a little messy (like, say, when you spill coffee on your scarf five minutes before a meeting. Yes it happened to me. Many times).

This isn't just about me, though. That compliment felt like a gentle push from the universe, a reminder that we all carry this incredible energy within us. Every single one of us is a universe in our own right, constantly evolving, learning, and putting one foot in front of the other (even if it's just to get to the fridge!😅).

We're all moving, growing, adapting. Sometimes that motion feels absolutely ecstatic – like when a project clicks, or you finally master that tricky recipe, or your kids actually clean their room without being asked (a true universal miracle!). Other times, it's more of a determined shuffle through a heavy downpour. But it's motion nonetheless.

What struck me most was the simple act of being seen in such a beautiful light. It wasn't about perfection; It was about seeing the life and growth within. And that, my friends, is super motivating! It makes me want to glow up even more, to try new things, and to embrace the quirky, messy, wonderfully human "motion" that is my life.

So, next time you're feeling a bit less "ecstatic motion" and more "stuck-in-traffic motion," remember: you're still a universe. You're still moving, creating, and containing plentiful. And perhaps, just perhaps, you're more "ecstatic" than you give yourself credit for. After all, sometimes, the greatest joy is just showing up and doing your thing, even if your inner universe is powered by caffeine and sheer willpower. 😉

Where Little Hands Hold Big Love

Hi,

It's the second Sunday in May – a day when most people around the world stops for a moment to celebrate how amazing moms are. And here I am, enjoying the wonderful craziness of being a mom to my two kids, Auni and Adam. Feeling lucky? That's saying it lightly! These two little bundles of energy have totally changed my life, making me want to be the best mom ever. At least, for them.

Now, let's be real, my sweet kids know I don't like it when things go wrong. But you know how kids are; rules are more like ideas they can choose to ignore in fun ways. 😂 It seems like their main goal is to see how many deep breaths I can take before I get really annoyed. That perfect 'Super Calm Mom' I wish I could be, the one who talks quietly even when things are crazy? Yeah, she hasn't arrived at my house yet.

Actually, I think their day isn't finished unless they've heard me talk a lot – about tiny crumbs on the table or big things like leaving toys around the house. From when the sun comes up until it goes down, my voice is like the normal sound they hear all day. You know, like the quiet noise a fridge makes… but with more clear instructions. 😉

There are times when I get really angry and my voice gets loud. But the really special thing is, even after a day like that, they still come back to me. They'll sit on my lap, their little heads close to me, and talk about their day as if we didn't have any problems earlier. It's in those moments, with the smell of their bath and their quiet secrets, that I really understand. No matter how many times I sighed or raised my voice that day, being with me, sitting on my lap, feeling my love – that's their safe and steady home.

Sunday, May 11th 2025. 

It's supper time, and you can already see Adam's getting sleepy. He's definitely an early-to-bed, early-to-rise kind of kid.

So this year, Adam made a special handmade gift for Mother's Day at school. He brought it home to surprise me with his artwork. He even got his sister to make one for me too! Now I know what they were quietly doing in their room early Sunday morning when I asked for an extra hour of peace. Hehe!

My heart melted at the sight of the two small, handmade paper pouches from Auni and Adam.

Seriously though, my heart is overflowing with love for my little rule-breakers. So, to all fellow moms out there who understand the beautiful chaos and the unwavering love, Happy Mother's Day! May your day be filled with moments that remind you just how incredible you are, even when you're just trying to get through the next five minutes. We're all in this amazing, slightly crazy, and utterly rewarding journey together.