It’s past midnight, and the rain is absolutely pouring outside my window. There is something about a heavy midnight rain that makes you want to sit back and reflect. And honestly? I owe you an update. I’ve been completely off the radar for the last two weeks. Where did I disappear to? Nowhere, really. Life just happened all at once. Between a mountain of extra activities and the official start of my classes, I have been on my toes from morning till night.
A couple of days ago, things hit a breaking point. It was one of those deeply challenging days where I had to juggle a packed schedule while carrying a very heavy heart. Do you know what the hardest part about days like that is? It’s the performance.
In front of your students and peers, you have to appear completely professional, positive, and full of "I can do this!" energy. But in reality? All you actually want to do is sit alone in a pitch-black room, do absolutely nothing, think absolutely nothing, and just let all the hidden emotions out. But life doesn’t always give you a timeout when you want one. Of course I didn’t get that alone time. I had to keep moving.
After surviving that incredibly tough day, I knew I needed a reset the next morning. So, I settled the morning errands early and headed to my absolute favourite food spot for some comfort food. I got there at 7:00 AM sharp, right as they were flipping over the "Open" sign. I sat down, ate, and by 7:20 AM, I was done. It was a short 20 minutes, but it was exactly what I needed. Heavy heart or not, life must go on. I realized I had to quickly pick a direction and force myself back onto the right track.
Later that afternoon, as the stress started creeping back, I reached for an energy bar to keep myself going. Honestly, I wanted to eat more than the three of them. When we are stressed, it is so easy to turn to emotional eating and overindulge. But I stopped myself. I ate exactly what I needed and no more.
Self-control is everything in moments like this. If I had followed my emotional cravings, I would have tripled the amount in one go. But I chose not to betray my body just because my mind was having a hard time. Keeping that small promise to myself felt like a victory.
Did a quick breakfast and a snack solve all the problems worrying my heart? Not even close.
But it did make me feel good about my choices. At the end of the day, we can't always control the bad things that happen to us, or the sudden waves of stress that come with a busy life. We can only control how we handle them.
It is completely okay to feel overwhelmed. Cry it out if you need to. But once the tears are dry, get back up, grab your comfort food, and keep moving forward. 💕
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