Everything I do, I do it for you

Dear Auni,

If let say one day you stumble upon this post, this song is specially dedicated for you.

Look into my eyes – you will see

What you mean to me.

Search your heart, search your soul

And when you find me there you'll search no more.

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for.

You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for.

You know it's true:

Everything I do, I do it for you.

Look into your heart – you will find

There's nothin' there to hide.

Take me as I am, take my life.

I would give it all, I would sacrifice.

Love, Ummi.

Opting for vaccines

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ni genap Auni 60 hari. Kalau ikutkan hari ni la yang dia kena pi ambik injection 2 bulan. Tapi kitorang dah bawak dia cucuk dekat Pantai SP hari Ahad lepas. Saja booked follow up appointment hari Ahad so that Am tak payah nak apply cuti apa semua. Nasib baik Kedah kerja hari Ahad so apa-apa urusan yang penting kitorang boleh pi buat kat area Sg. Petani saja.

Auni's immunization record. We are among the pro-vaccine parents. 

Pagi tu gerak dalam pukul 11am dari rumah dalam setengah jam dah sampai. Kat hospital pulak tak ramai sangat orang, patient yang nak jumpa Dr Shahbodin pun tak ramai sangat. Simple je check up dekat Pantai ni. Timbang berat, check heart beat, jantung, paru-paru and so on, pastu terus injection je. Best kan jadi Dr pakar kat private hospital ni? haha. Gaji dah la banyakkkkk. :p

Auni's Paediatrics, Dr Shahbodin from Pantai Hospital Sg Petani.
Comel je klinik Dr Shah ni. Very kids friendly.

Auni dengan Babah tunggu turn nak jumpa Dr.
Anak Babah sangat Auni ni. huhu. 

She cried a bit masa kena injection tu. I rasa bukan sebab sakit sangat pun tapi lebih kepada terkejut and sebab orang pegang dia. Lepas angkat pujuk-pujuk terus dia diam. Takut jugak kalau demam ke apa tapi Dr Shah cakap insyaAllah takde apa-apa. Tapi dia spare jugak la ubat demam in case kalau temperature naik. But so far everything is fine, Alhamdulillah.

One healthy baby at 59-days young.

I rasa macam nak bawak jugak Auni check up dekat Klinik Desa Paya Keladi yang I dok pi masa pregnant dulu. Rindu nak kena bletiaq dengan misi Kak Ros. haha. Somehow I think government procedure yang look everything into details tu ada bagusnya. Memang la lambat sikit proses kalau check up tu, tapi sekali sekala apa salahnya. Sementara tengah dk cuti lagi ni ok la kan. :)

Celebrating our third wedding anniversary

Assalamualaikum,

Hai semua! Last week kan 3rd anniversary I dengan Am (yang dua-dua orang lupa tu hahaha)? So last weekend kitorang plan nak keluar la makan-makan untuk celebrate. Ohh, kitorang bukan jenis yang sambut birthdays ke, anniversary siap dengan hadiah apa semua tu. Cukup dengan wish each other, then ada masa keluar makan-makan pun dah rasa special dah. 

Tapi kalau ada hadiah mesti senyum sampai telinga hahaha. Well you know, nama pun perempuan kan? We love presents, surprises, celebrations and so on. Tapi tak bermakna setiap benda pun nak kena sambut. I am not trying to be cliche here, tapi apa yang I selalu doa dan berharap, Allah swt panjangkan jodoh kami sampai ke syurga bersama-sama dengan anak-anak kami. :)

So Sabtu lepas kitorang pun keluar cuma anniversary kali ni special sikit sebab kitorang dating sambil tolak stroller, pakai baby carrier and inside my bag was full of diapers, baby clothes, nappy rashes cream, pacifiers and loads more baby stuff. hahaha. Tak romantik langsung, but we had fun anyway! :)

Kali ni kitorang keluar pegi Gurney Plaza sebab plan nak makan dekat Chili's. Ada satu je Chili's outlet in Penang, so terpaksa la jugak masuk area yang crowded tu. But to avoid the traffic, kitorang keluar awal pagi, and guna waze masuk segala celah rumah orang apa semua, so tak payah la kitorang harung heavy taffic dekat tengah-tengah Georgetown. Yeay!

Sepanjang jalan dari rumah ke Gurney Plaza dia tido je. Good girl Auni.

We had our lunch early that day dalam pukul 11.30 am dah sampai restaurant. Mall pun tak ramai orang lagi time tu. Alhamdulillah Auni pun behaved quite well. She's always very charming when she had enough milk and sleep. Kalau tak cukup makan or susu baru dia akan cranky sikit. So sebelum dia buat hal, I will nurse her enough, and let her sleep at least until one of us done eating. Sekurang-kurangnya kalau tak tido pun dia akan bertenang sambil tengok lampu, kipas and orang-orang yang dok lalu lalang.

One with Ummi

One with Babah.

So lepas makan kitorang tak pegi jalan mana dah pun. Singgah Daiso jap (we are Daiso's biggest fans hahaha) beli a few things, pastu terus balik. Ohh Gurney Plaza tu tak berapa kids friendly la. Dia cuma sediakan changing room je, nursing room tadak. Nasik baik I bawak bekal susu Auni dalam feeding bottle, kalau tak jenuh jugak I nak carik tempat yang sesuai untuk direct feeding. huhu.

Muka kesian nak mintak milk dalam kereta. Ajar jugak puting sekarang so that she could soothe herself to sleep.
Tapi memang jarang sangat la dia nak. She prefers her mom more. T__T

Balik tu singgah rumah my parents tengok mak siapkan barang untuk pi umrah. Makan kenduri akikah jiran, balik rumah tok I sat bawak Auni jalan rumah moyang dia, then balik rumah dalam pukul 10 pm camtu. Keluar rumah dari pagi sampai malam. Penat weh. Nyenyak I tido malam tu, Bangun 2 kali untuk pump susu tapi sambil pejam mata. hahaha. :p  

Hello April!

Assalamualaikum,

Good morning everyone! How have you all been? Hopefully semua sihat ye. I tengah tunggu si kecik tu bangun for feeding session. Tapi dah pukul 11 am ni pun dok nyenyak bukan main lagi tido dalam buaian. Bagus jugak, sementara dia tengah nyenyak tu sempat la jugak I siapkan macam-macam termasuk la jenguk blog ni. hehe.

Biasanya lepas Am keluar pegi keja dalam pukul 7 am tu I akan nap kejap sampai pukul 8am sebelum bangun masak and so on. Tapi hari ni rasa macam tak mengantuk pulak so I keluar siram pokok-pokok dekat laman. Biasanya Am yang siram sebelum dia keluar tapi pagi ni dia tak sempat so I took over the task.

Laman tepi sekangkang kera.
Rumput yang kena direct sun light semua kering. huhu.

Musim panas macam ni susah tau nak maintain pokok bunga and rumput sentiasa hijau je. Dah nak masuk 2 bulan tak hujan dekat area utara ni. Jadiknya kita la yang kena rajin bagi pokok-pokok tu sumber air. My husband has been taking care of them very well all this while, sayang ooo kalau mati. huhu.

Anyway, semalam first time bawak Auni keluar malam-malam. Tak pegi mana pun, just bawak pegi jumpa maktok dengan tokwan dekat House of Murtabak, Bertam. Kebetulan Maklong & Paklong, Acu & Maksu, and Tok I pun join jugak. So dapat la Auni jumpa sekali dia punya tok-tok sedara dan moyang.

Auni with Maktok and Tokwan. Tengok la tu sedap ja dia tidoq.

Auni with her Toklong. Ada chemistry dengan Toklong ni.
Maklumla, geng orang Sungai Petani. hehe.

Auni with her Toksu.
Bukak mata sat, pastu kelip-kelip sambung tidoq balik. 

Dah lama gila kot I tak keluar malam. Last hari tu masa sebelum bersalin. So bila dapat keluar mestila excited. hahaha. Auni rileks je boleh pulak dia tido sepanjang masa. Mana taknya, lepas sorang, sorang dok pass dukung dia. Budak tu kan suka berdukung, makin nyenyak la dia punya tido bila semua orang dk ulit macam tu. huhu.

Tapi nasib baik sampai rumah dia tido macam biasa. Sebelum pukul 12 macam tu kot. I pun tak sedar sebab I pun tido jugak. hahaha. Disebabkan Auni behave macam ni so Ummi dengan Babah boleh bawak Auni jalan lagi. Eh jap bunyi macam dah bangun si kecik tu. I better go check on her. I'll be right back.

**Okay let's sambung.

Hai everyone! I have just woken up!
Mata mana mata, Auni? :p

I baru siap mandikan and menyusu apa semua, and she's back to sleep now. Ngamuk-ngamuk takmo minum susu guna botol tadi. Mata pejam-pejam sambil nangis. Ngantuk sangat agaknya nak hisap botol susu pun malas. Mula-mula ingat nak force jugak, tapi tak sampai hati I ended up feeding her anyway. Tak sampai 10 saat dah tido. Okay sah mengantuk betol la tu. Jangan ko buat perangai reject botol susu dah la nak. Tak senang hati Ummi nak tinggal pi keja nanti. huhu.

Third Wedding Anniversary :: Three years down, forever to go, InsyaAllah.

Assalamualaikum, 

Guess what guys? Today is our 3rd wedding anniversary. And I only remembered it at 12 noon today. hahaha. I rasa Am pun lupa jugak. Padahal seminggu sebelum tu memang dok ingat dalam otak hari Selasa depan ni anniversary. Sekali bila sampai tarikh tu boleh pulak lupa. kehkehkeh. :p

Ish bahaya ni, baru 3 tahun pun boleh lupa ke??? Nak buat macamana, betol-betol tak ingat. Kalau tanya bila tarikh nikah, I can simply asnwer the date and time and so on. Cuma bila sampai tarikh tu boleh pulak tak perasan. huhu. Ohh well, numbers je kan anniversary semua ni. Yang penting kasih sayang tu sentiasa mekar. Kan? Kan? :p

Dua tahun sebelum ni, hidup kitorang berdua je. Pegi mana, buat apa semua berkepit berdua jeee. Tapi bila dah masuk tahun yang ke-3 ni, Alhamdulillah Allah swt hantar penyeri dalam hidup kitorang, and that makes our life becomes more meaningful. Mana tau tahun depan tambah lagi sorang penyeri pulak. Eh? :p

So to my one and only husband, thank you for being amazing all these years. You are not only my lover and my best friend, but you are now a dad to our daughter. I am very happy with you and I could see that we will be happier for the rest of our life, InsyaAllah. Happy anniversary sayang! :)

I loved you then, and I love you still.
When and where is our next overseas trip dear hubby? :p 

Confinement officially off! :)

Assalamualakum,

Hai semua!! Hari ni I dah officially habis pantang. Yahuuu!! Cukup 44 hari berpantang cara orang Melayu dengan tabah. haha Tapi rasa macam nak proceed je berstokin dan bengkung tu selagi dok cuti ni. Bukan apa, rasa macam slim gila bila pakai bengkung hari-hari, pastu bila tak pakai socks rasa macam pelik pulak berangin ja rasa. huhu

I have reached my pre-pregnancy weight as of today. Pheww lega. Tapi kan, kalau dapat kurangkan a few more kilos would be nice. Konon nak target berat masa mula-mula kawen la. hahaha. Tinggi sangat angan-angan tu cik kak oii. But no harm trying, am I right? :p

Sekarang I makan banyak gila kot because I am constantly hungry. Effect menyusu sama I rasa ni. But to my surprise, walaupun makan ala-ala monster, tapi berat tak naik pulak. Siap turun lagi ada la. Tapi bukan la turun mendadak banyak sangat pun. But it is gradually decreasing day by day for which I will be really really glad if this continues. hehe.

Auni pulak semakin membesar dengan jayanya. She's not only putting on her weight, but also her height increases rapidly. Takpela anak, keep growing up but I will try to make sure that you always keep your head down. Always stay humble, never forgetting who you are and from whence you actually came from.

Auni Aufieyah,
45 days young. :)

Weekend ni plan nak bawak dia jalan-jalan for the first time. Tak pi mana pun, takat pi mall ja. haha. Tu pun Ummi yang excited lebih. Maklumla la, dekat dua bulan dah tak punch card kat shopping mall. Tu yang teruja tu. Let's pray that she's gonna behave well, will you? :) 

Akhirnya anakku masuk buaiaan jugak.. :)

Assalamualaikum,

Hi semua! It's the middle of the week already. Kerja dua hari lagi lepas tu cuti hujung minggu. Mesti ramai yang dah plan macam-macam kan? I macam biasa. dok menunggu hari nak habis pantang. hahaha. Padahal dok rumah best je, cuma excited nak keluar sebab rasa macam dah lama sangat tak ambik udara luar. Terdengar-dengar Mydin Bertam ni macam dok memanggil-manggil je ni. :p

Hari ni rasa tenang sikit sebab Auni tengah tido nyenyak kat dalam buai. Ohh speaking of buaian, dulu I berangan konon taknak ajar anak tido dalam buai. KONON okay! Lepas umur sebulan, Auni buat perangai nak berdukung setiap masa, kalau tak dia taknak tido. huhuhu. So akhirnya tewas tersungkur jugak angan-angan ummi taknak ajar Auni biasa dengan buaian.

Sebelum ni dia ok je, lepas minum susu, peluk tepuk-tepuk sikit dia boleh tido nyenyak dekat dalam playpen dia. At least sejam tu memang dia tido nyenyak la kalau takde gangguan apa-apa. Tapi lately ni pantang ada bunyi sikittttttt pun dia boleh terjaga pastu bercinta la nak bagi dia nyenyak balik. huhu.

Siang-siang memang Auni tido dalam playpen.
Maybe sekarang panas pun ye jugak kot sebab tu tak berapa selesa dalam ni.

Ni kalsu tido atas katil dengan Ummi & Babah.
Bukan main lgi dia punya lentik tu. hmmmm..

Yang bestnya, kalau duduk atas orang berdukung 2 jam pun dia boleh tido. Padahal musim panas sekarang ni kan, kita yang berpeluh-peluh dukung dia, dia syok je tidoq. Ewah ewah anak. Bukan main lagi kan nak sedapppp je? Bila letak je dalam cot, otomatik mata tu bukak dan-dan buat bunyi yang macam tak selesa tu. Ehhhh geram pulak mak ko ni. Tapi sayang. Acane tu?

Memandangkan I risau takut nanti dia tak cukup tido siang-siang, and pembesaran dia terganggu because of lack of sleep, so we decided to get her a cradle together with with automatic motor. Buai tu beli kat kedai perabot kampong je. Murah weh. Kalau kedai baby RM200++, kedai biasa RM100++, tapi kat kedai perabot feveret kitorang ni jual RM78 je. Am mintak kurang RM50 dia tak bagi. hahaha. Tapi ye la, memang dah murah sangat tu banding dengan tempat lain so takyah la mintak tawar lagi dah.

Buaian legend dari dulu orang pakai.
Set motor dengan spring tu beli dekat kedai baby Sg Petani RM200.

So kawan-kawan yang duduk sekitar Seberang Perai Utara ni, kalau nak beli perabot sila la pi kedai dekat Bagan Lebai Tahir sebelah Caltex. Semua perabot kitorang beli kat situ je. Tapi tak glemer la sebab takdak lambang Courts Mammoths atau kedai-kedai besaq yang lain. Tapi apa ada hal? Yang penting value for money. Musim ekonomi merudum amcam ni kena la pandai berjimat. Kan? :)

Does it bother you when ignorant people smokes around you?

Assalamualaikum,

Apa khabar semua orang? I sihat Alhamdulillah. Hari ni dah hari yang ke-37 berpantang. Eh, maksudnya lagi seminggu I habis pantang la kan? Wahhhh boleh countdown dah ni. hahaha. Rasa macam dah lama je tak keluar rumah. Tak sabar nak keluar jalan-jalan. Tapi lepas ni kalau nak keluar jalan-jalan ke makan-makan ke kena cari tempat yang infant friendly la. Tempat yang ada orang hisap rokok will be strictly prohibited!!

Kadang-kadang tak paham dengan perangai sesetengah orang Malaysia ni. Ada setengah tempat tu dah terang-terang letak signage No Smoking besar-besar kat dinding, tapi adaaaaaa jugak mangkuk-mangkuk yang tak paham bahasa tetap jugak nak merokok kat situ. Sangat tak patut tau! Consider la la sikit kawasan sekitar, ada orang yang asthma, ada perempuan mengandung, ada baby, kanak-kanak.

Tapi dalam beberapa tahun ni kan, I perasan kedai-kedai makan atau restaurant dah tak letak tanda No Smoking kan? Takut orang tak mai kedai depa la tu!! Hmphhhh. Ye la, smokers ni kan suka pekena sebatang dua lepas makan. Kalau kedai yang tak boleh lepak hisap rokok sah-sah la golongan ni pangkah awai-awai lagi. Tapi tak adil la untuk kitorang yang anti-smokers ni. Tak pasai-pasai kena tumpang sedut sama asap yang busuk tu. huhu.

Susah nak cari tanda camni dah kat kedai-kedai makan.
Kalau letak dekat depan pagaq rumah aci dak? :p

Kalau tempat yang ada tanda No Smoking I will not hesitate to let the smokers know about the existence of the sign. You know, just in case they don't realize it. I akan cakap baik-baik la. Tapi kalau still buat kerek tak paham bahasa jugak memang aku sound je nanti. Tapi tu la, it would be better kalau depa sedaq sendiri kan? Tak payah la sampai orang nak kena sound pulak. Herghhh.

I heran kenapa dekat sesetengah negara lain yang I pernah pegi, rakyat depa hisap rokok jugak, tapi bukan dekat semua tempat la, especially public places like restaurants and parks. Depa hisap rokok kat tempat yang dibenarkan saja. Semua ni berkaitan dengan manners kan? Budaya hormat orang sekeliling ni la yang paling susah sekali nak terap tau. How I wish I have the power to control this problem. Memang aku sakit hati sangat if I got to deal with smokers ni. huhu.

Sebab tu la agaknya Allah swt jodohkan I dengan suami yang bukan perokok ni. Well at lest not until now. Kalau in future tukaq perangai I taktau la. But I doakan takkan la. huhu. He better not. Kalau tak nanti jenuh I dok kumpul dosa kering sebab asyik dok sound laki sendiri. :p

Introducing my little girl, Auni Awfieyah. :)

Assalamualaikum,

Today is the 7th day of March. It means that my little girl has survived her first 30 days in this world. Alhamdulillah. All praises to Allah swt. She was born on February 7th, 2016, exactly at 10.18pm, on Sunday. Maksudnya I kena tambah satu hari lagi dalam senarai 'important dates to remember' inside my diary.hehe.

So guys, let me introduce you to my little girl, Auni Awfieyah Binti Faizal Amri.

Little bun in the oven freshly baked and ready to be eaten.
Nyumsss!!

Up to this date, she is still my full breastfeeding baby. Susu takdelah meriah gila macam yang orang selalu letak dekat fb tu. haha. Tapi Alhamdulillah cukup untuk Auni sampai hari ni, and I have started to stock up the milk untuk supply bila I masuk kerja nanti. Seronok tengok stock bertambah tiap-tiap hari dalam freezer. Looking at the frozen milk buat I lagi bersemangat nak teruskan my breastfeeding journey. :)

I direct-feed her most of the time.
Tapi kadang-kadang selit jugak bottle-feeding session. Senang untuk masuk kerja nanti.
Thanks to the Medela Calma Teat. No such thing like nipple confusion yeay!! 

I noticed that the more I feed the baby (and pump out at the same time), the amount of milk that I can produce increases relatively. Maksudnya betol la macam yang semua orang dok cakap, 'more demand, more supply'. So, I takkan berhenti usaha untuk increase the milk supply by feeding her and pumping out regularly. Doa semoga I akan terus istiqamah so that I can feed Auni with my own milk for as long as I can.

Masa lahir, Auni ada demam kuning jugak sikit. Her reading was 157. Kitorang buat check up dekat Klinik Kesihatan Kepala Batas. Dr cakap kena make sure the reading goes down to at least 90 sebelum dia dikategorikan sebagai bebas dari demam kuning. It took us 7 visits to the clinic sebelum Auni dapat reading 75. Poor my baby, 7 kali kena cucuk tang tapak kaki. Tapi tiap-tiap kali cucuk pun dia tido apa cerita? hahaha. Nampak sagat Ummi yang emo lebih bila tengok kaki anak kena cucuk. :p

Auni while her hair is still on. Halusss je rambut dia.
My most favourite close-up photo of her. Nampak tenang je muka masa ni.

 

 

I can say that she is an easy baby, and I should thank Allah swt for that. Setakat hari ni, dia jenis yang tido nyenyak malam-malam, bangun 2 kali untuk tukar pampers dengan minum susu. Lepas tu dia akan sambung tido sampai pukul 10am. Of course la bangun sekali dua in between untuk minum. So sementara dia tido tu, I boleh setelkan masak, basuh baju, mandi semua. Lepas tu I boleh focus spend masa dengan dia je bila dia bangun. :)

Auni with her hair shaved off. Fret not baby, your beautiful hair will grow long soon.
Ni biasanya muka kesian mintak milk. haha.

So that's a little bit about my angle, Auni Awfieyah. She's my latest addiction right now. Sementara tengah cuti lagi ni baik I mengadap dia puas-puas and enjoy every little development that she's making every single day. I know that as soon as I start working, I'm gonna miss all the cuddling sessions that we really enjoy to have everyday. hukhuk. :( 

Touch has a memory

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ni dah masuk hari ke-3 bulan Mac. Cepat betol masa jalan sekarang kan. Sedar tak sedar, dah masuk 26 hari I berpantang. Alhamdulillah, sampai hari ni masih taat lagi dengan adat berpantang orang Melayu. Urut, tungku, mandi daun tu semua dah buat. Bengkung dan stokin masih tak tinggal. And you know what? I still enjoy my pantang meals, and there is still no sign of me getting bored of them. hehehe. :p

Sapa kata lauk time berpantang tak sedap. I rasa macam sedap ja semua lauk yang I makan sampai hari ni. Walaupun lebih kurang sama je menu tiap-tiap hari, tapi I ok je. Seminggu yang first tu I ambik pakej bersalin yang siap masakkan lauk dekat rumah. Lepas tu 2 minggu I order home-cooked confinement meals, and dia terus hantar dekat rumah. Minggu ni je I start masak sendiri lauk yang simple-simple.

Nanti ada masa I cerita pasal pakej bersalin yang I ambik sepanjang berpantang ni okay. Dalam pakej tu termasuk; steam bath, mandi air daun herba, lulur, tangas, tungku, berurut, mandi & jaga baby and masak lauk pantang. And I am totally satisfied with their service. Kira berbaloi sangat dengan harga yang dibayar. We talk about it later okay?

And I haven't introduced you to my little girl yet, am I right? Nanti ada masa I cerita panjang sikit in separate entry about her. She's one healthy baby, all praises to Allah swt.  I love to stare at her while she is sleeping or awake. Sampai hari ni macam tak percaya lagi that she came out of me. hahaha. Biasa la first time mom memang macam tu kot. Semua benda nak emo. :p



I will keep holding on to these fingers even after they outgrown mine.
That's my promise.



I have the habit of playing around with her fingers while nursing her.

I believe that every single touch from a mother to her child contains memory that will remain beautiful forever. :)

I am now officially a mom! :)

Assalamualaikum,

Hai everyone! Sorry for the long hiatus. Tapi mesti dah boleh agak kenapa kan? hehe. Well, as some of you might have expected, life I sekarang dah berubah hampir 50% sejak 7 Februari 2016. I am now officially a mother! The feeling is so surreal. Sampai hari ni macam tak berapa nak percaya lagi that I now have a baby and I can call myself a mom. Senyum sampai telinga. :)

I am not going to write out my labor story in details here, too long to be written I tell you. I will just cut the story short and cerita some important points that I would love to remember forever. To me, first pregnancy is somewhat very special sebab semua pengalaman adalah yang pertama. You never knew what to expect until you experience it yourself.

Okay, here it goes. My expected due date (EDD) was on 29th January 2016. Tapi sampai tarikh yang Dr bagi tu, nothing happen. Zero. None. I felt nothing, takde sebarang tanda nak bersalin sikit pun. Makin ligat berjalan lagi ada la. Maklumla, dah start cuti bersalin awal kan? hahaha. Hampir tiap-tiap hari I keluar pusing-pusing shopping malls with my husband. Adaaa je benda nak beli walaupun sikit.

I waited for another week, and on 5th of February 2016, hari Jumaat, sampai la masa untuk serah diri dekat Pantai Hospital Sungai Petani. Waktu tu, I dah masuk minggu yang ke-41. Masuk sepuluh bulan bawak perut. huhu. Orang tua-tua kata baby sayang sungguh nak tinggai perut mak dia. Tapi kan, I started to miss having my baby inside my tummy again. Serious ni, seronok sebenarnya bila ada kawan yang sentiasa melekat je dengan kita. :)

Bila dah masuk wad hari yang first tu, again, still takde tanda nak bersalin sikit pun. Takde turun darah, takde air ketuban pecah, baby sihat kat dalam perut. Enjoy duduk hospital makan tidoq sebab takde rasa sakit. Cuma sekali sekala rasa rasa minor contraction yang macam senggugut tu. Disebabkan I jenis yang senggugut teruk tiap-tiap bulan, so minor contraction felt like nothing to me.

I was very lucky sebab my gynae, Dr June jenis orang yang support natural birth. Dia bagi I chance sampai 3 hari lagi walaupun waktu tu I dah memang overdue. Yang penting, both mom and baby must be in good condition. Alhamdulillah sepanjang 3 hari tu, Dr sentiasa monitor CTG baby, selagi semua okay, she will not opt for caesarian. Dr pesan I kena walking marathon for easy delivery. So I heret Am teman I jalan-jalan pusing hospital naik turun tangga almost every day and night. :P

Gambar paling gemok seumur hidup. I hetchiuuuu water retention!
Tapi ada hati lagi berjalan sambil makan ice-cream. hahaha. :p

Masuk petang hari ke-3 (hari terakhir, otherwise kena operation), I started to feel frequent contraction. Tapi still relax, boleh tahan lagi siap turun café petang tu dalam pukul 4 pm makan donat gebu dengan cucoq udang. hahaha. Kalau tengokkan gaya, memang takdak tanda nak bersalin lagi pun time tu.

Dalam hati dah nervous dah, kalau sampai malam ni tak bersalin, esok Dr cakap terpaksa operate sebab she cannot let the baby too long inside the womb, takut ada complication sebab dah lama sangat. I doa banyak-banyak dalam hati mintak la Allah mudahkan semua time tu. Normal ka, operation ka, I tak kisah dah, yang penting selamat.

Lepas makan, I jalan-jalan lagi naik turun tangga, then masuk bilik dalam pukul 5 pm. Masa tu dah mula rasa sakit. I solat Asar pun sambil duduk je. Lepas tu Dr June datang to check my opening, surprisingly I was 2cm dilated that time. Wow, pagi tu takdak tanda opening langsung, tengok-tengok petang tu dah 2cm. I was so happy and nervous at the same time. Ada harapan I boleh bersalin secara normal malam tu or esok paginya. Allah betol-betol dengar doa I. :)

Lepas je Dr balik, dalam pukul 6 pm, the contraction started to become more frequent, and stronger. Sampai hari ni I tak boleh nak describe macam mana rasa dia. Tapi memang sakit. Semua benda rasa tak kena. Baring salah, duduk salah, I siap muntah lagi. huhuhu. Dalam pukul 7 pm macam tu, I cakap dekat nurse I dah mula rasa sakit sangat, tapi waktu tu baru 4cm dilated. Nurse akan bawak masuk labor room only when I am 6cm dilated.

Tapi nurse dah siap bagi ubat untuk buang air to prepare me for delivery. I ingat lama lagi la nak tunggu sampai 6cm. Tapi rupanya setengah jam lepas tu nurse check lagi, and bagitau I dah boleh masuk labor room. Masa tu, the pain was unbearable. Rasa macam tak mampu je nak tunggu sampai 10 cm. I had no idea that the labor could be that fast. I kept telling myself that the time has come and I finally can see my daughter after 10 months.

I tak sedar pun bila opening jadi 8cm or 10 cm, I cuma tau yang the pain was so intense I barely could speak. I tak keluar sepatah perkataan pun, cuma mampu selawat and baca doa Nabi Yunus dalam hati je. Am ada dengan I sepanjang masa dalam labor room tu, I remembered he talked to me and tried to calm me down, tapi I tengok je muka dia, tak terdaya nak respond pun.

Dr offered me to take the calming gas, tapi yang tu pun I terlupa nak ambik. hahaha. Padahal sakit gila masa tu, I cuma mampu doa dalam hati je. Semua orang cakap, kalau tak sakit, bukan nama bersalin, so I was mentally prepared for that. I told myself, tak kira sakit macam mana pun, I mesti kena tahan, InsyaAllah, the baby will come out bila sampai masa.

Sepanjang dalam labor room, I ikut je semua arahan Dr, when to breath, when to push, when to hold and the process were repeated. Dr June and her team was very very helpful, I think I couldn't make it through without their help. And my husband too. He was there all the time, giving me his full support and witnessing the birth of our daughter. After a few trials (pushing and breathing were really not easy, phewwww), Alhamdulillah, tepat pukul 10.18 pm, my daughter safely made her debut into this world.

We were discharged on the next day.
Thank you for the hospitality Pantai Hospital Sungai Petani.

So, that's basically about it. Thank you Allah the Almighty for making my delivery fast and easy. Sakit of course la tak boleh nak elak, tapi semuanya dimudahkan. Bila nurse bagi I peluk anak sendiri for the first time right after the delivery, semua sakit yang teramat sangat tu hilang macam tu je. Semua orang mesti rasa benda yang sama jugak kan. That's how powerful a woman is. :)

That's my gynae, Dr June. If you are looking for an O&G specialist, I would totally recommend her!
Very professional and she made me feel like giving birth is nothing, but beautiful. :)

InsyaAllah nanti kalau ada masa I update lagi tentang perkembangan I and my little family. Well, I am pretty sure that my writings after this are going to evolve around parenting and work. Well, nama pun virtual diary kan. Apa yang berlaku di sekeliling waktu tu la yang kita akan record kan. So, till I see you next time lovelies. Bye bye! :)

Servis mangkuk tingkat Kepala Batas

Assalamualaikum,

Good morning everyone! Hari ni hari kedua I duduk rumah sempena maternity leave selama tiga bulan. I am enjoying my time being a fulltime housewife thus far. But I think I shall wait until the little one is out before saying that being a housewife is REALLY enjoying or not. huhu. Nervous weh.

Tapi kan, deep inside my heart, sebenarnya ada rasa teringin nak duduk rumah , jaga suami, jaga anak, jaga rumah je. haha. But with the unstable economical condition that we gotta go through nowadays, I think that would not be a wise decision just yet. Maybe someday. Who knows? :)

Anyway, that's not the point here. Sebenarnya nak bagitau yang walaupun duduk rumah tapi I tak masak langsung pun. haha. Bila dah sarat menunggu hari, jalan pun senget benget in slow motion, I found cooking is rather tiring. I don't know how others do it, tapi I tak buat la. Setakat nak masak nasik, goreng telur tu ok la, tapi kalau nak masak complete meal siap main and side dishes semua tu, memang penat.

But I still gotta to take my lunch kalau tak nanti I am gonna starve myself (and the baby) like mad. Nak makan roti je rasa macam incomplete nutrients. Nak keluar bawak kereta pulak semata-mata nak pi beli sebungkus nasik tu memang tak larat la dengan musim panas macam ni. So what I did was, I ordered delivery food service!

Selama ni dok tengok banner diorang dok promote je dekat area rumah I. Then bila stalk instagram ada jugak dia update menu apa semua. Bila ada peluang try, I decided to give it a go! Senang je sebab order through Whatsapp. Pilih set menu yang kita nak, then sebelum tengahari menu untuk hari tu sampai rumah. Easy peasy! :)

Some of the weekly menus.

 

I have tried their service for a couple of times and my verdict is, they provide excellent service! The delivery is always on time (11am-12noon), kalau kita lambat bukak pintu dia akan call to check whether we are home or not. Kalau ada, dia bagi the food siap invoice apa semua. Payment boleh buat cash or online transfer, then petang dalam pukul 2-4pm tu dia akan round collect mangkuk tingkat yang dia hantar. Very professional!

The invoice. With the name of the company on it.

Daging kunyit, sayur pucuk tumis air, ulam, sambal belacan.

Asam pedas, ulam, sambal belacan, telur masin.

So to those yang rasa tak sempat nak masak tu, I would recommend you to use this service. Nak makan untuk the whole family memang tak berbaloi la. Tapi kalau setakat sorang makan memang okay sangat-sangat. Sesuai la dengan harga, and you can avoid all the hassles of going out by having your foods delivered at your doorstep. Isn't that awesome? :)

Dear Allah, I thank you for my husband

Assalamualaikum,

It's my husband's birthday today!

His 31st birthday.

Alhamdulillah thank you Allah for lending me him as my life partner.

Semoga jodoh yang Allah tetapkan ni bukan di dunia je, tapi sampai ke syurga jugak.

I don't know how can I thank him for being such a good husband to me.

Tiap-tiap hari masa hantar suami kat pintu masa nak pi kerja,

I pray that Allah brings him home safely to my awaiting arms.

Before my long maternity break

Assalamualaikum,

Wahh rajin pulak jenguk blog lately ni. haha. Sementara tengah ada mood menulis ni boleh la berceloteh kat dalam ni. Nanti bila mood ke laut, berbulan-bulan tak dengaq habaq. Standard la tu kan bila menulis untuk diri sendiri macam ni la.. :)

I have completed all my tasks at the School of Mathematics today. Submitted and verified all the final exam marks. Alhamdulillah result keseluruhan my students untuk subject Differential Equations ni sangat baik. Nervous jugak sebelum ni nak tengok macamana keputusan bebudak ni. Now the official result is out, I felt soo relieved.

Official result for Differential Equations I. Taught by yours truly. :)

Out of 211 students, lebih dari separuh yang dapat keputusan A dan A-. Tapi ada sorang yang sangkut paper ni. Gagal. It means that I might see him / her again in the coming session. Biasa la tu, mana boleh expect semua pelajar cemerlang dalam subject yang kita ajar. Dalam banyak-banyak yang okay, mesti ada sekumpulan pelajar yang tak dapat score. Lumrah la tu.

Ohh, I dah siap kemas office for my long break. Kosongkan all table top and cabinets. 3 bulan nak tinggai bilik ni mau berhabuk teruk la nanti. Takpela, naik cuti nanti fikir kemudian la nak kemas office macam mana nanti. Nasib baik tak banyak sangat barang lagi dalam bilik ni. Kalau tak jenuh jugak la.

Minggu depan bila dah mula cuti secara rasmi baru boleh buat final preparation to welcome the new member of our little family. Now I started to get excited to prepare the bedding set and everything. Sebelum ni biar je cot tu togel tak letak cadar lagi. I have organized the baby locker and I noticed that the amount of clothes is sooo little. Harapnya cukup la untuk awal-awal ni. huhu.

Kalau diikutkan, as a first time mom, memang I tak membeli banyak pun sebenarnya. It's not that I am not excited, but I am more to being moderate here. Tapi mana tau kan, as time goes by, syndrome first time mom tu meresap masuk dalam badan and I started to buy stuff for the baby like crazy, haaa time tu harap dimaafkan la ye. :p

Okay lah, I nak siap-siap nak balik dah ni. Tak boleh balik lambat sat lagi sangkut dalam jem naya ja. Tapi ada satu masalah. Tiap-tiap hari mesti pening kepala nak kena pikiaq what's for dinner? Haihh. Tu la soalan yang I rasa paling susah nak jawab lately ni. T___T

Till then, see you next time everyone!

Tata.

Just what I needed right now

Assalamualaikum,

Hai everyone! How's your week so far? I tengah menunggu hari sebelum mula bercuti panjang. Minggu ni still kena masuk office sebab ada a few benda lagi yang belom settle. I am planning to officially start my maternity leave on Monday, 25th January 2016.

Semalam I pi final check-up with my gynae at Pantai Hospital Sungai Petani. She told me that the baby has engaged and mature enough to come out at any time now. I told her that I am very nervous to welcome the baby out. But being her yang sentiasa cool tu, dia berjaya buat I rasa relax and just enjoy my last stage of pregnancy. Thank you Dr!

Anyway, sekarang ni cuaca panas gila kan? I am constantly sweating like mad walaupun mengadap kipas yang paling laju. I pun taktau kenapa boleh berpeluh lagi walaupun dah tala kipas kat depan muka. Must be the pregnancy hormone I should blame on. Paling bahagia bila masuk air-conditioned room. Akibatnya bil letrik bulan lepas and bulan ni memang naik mencanak. Sorry husband! :p

Cuaca panas macam ni buat I sentiasa jadi tak selesa and asyik nak naik angin tak tentu hala. Seriously, I was not that kind of person who easily got mad towards small things like that. Tapi lately memang cepat sangat bad mood and nak marah-marah untuk benda kecik-kecik. Haihh, I really hate myself for that.

Orang yang paling banyak sabar sekarang ni is my husband. Dealing with a cranky pregnant woman is really not easy, I know that. But I could see how he tries to make everything in control. Kena mintak ampun banyak-banyak nampaknya ni. huhu. Hopefully this stage won't last long. Aminnn.

Exactly. What. I. Needed. Right. Now.
Snow vacation with my husband is gonna be sooo perfect!

Experience is the best teacher

Assalamualaikum semua,

Dah habis hari ke lapan bulan Januari 2016 ni kan. Rasa macam baru je sangat masuk tahun baru hari tu. Nanti sedar tak sedar masuk tahun lagi satu pulak. That's how time flies, leaving us with so many unsettled things towards the end.

So guys, what have you been up to so far? As for me, dah seminggu mengadap final exam scripts yang menimbun tu. Seriously, marking exam papers is not something really fun to do. Bukan masalah susah ke apa, tapi lebih ke arah rasa bertanggungjawab on every single mark that I give to the students.

My everyday view at least until next week.
Lepas tu baru boleh cuti bersalin dengan tenang.

Kalau yang terlebih bagi markah tu takpa, I anggap tu rezeki students. Tapi yang I paling takut kalau terkurang bagi markah, lepas tu effect gred keseluruhan student tu. Tak ke macam aniaya namanya tu. Ish, hopefully takdela terlepas pandang sampai jadi macam tu. Sebab tu bila marking, seboleh-bolehnya I will be extra careful, especially untuk something big like final exam.

Well, that's a little bit something on what I am currently occupied with. Nampak macam mudah je jadi pensyarah ni kan. Pegi mengajar, cukup masa bagi ujian, habis ujian semak kertas. Macam yang I selalu berangan dulu tanda betul salah guna pen merah. But in reality, that's not how it really works. I love the teaching part, memang cita-cita dari kecik pun sebenarnya. But teaching alone is actually not enough.

You also have a lot of supervision to make. Currently I am supervising two final year projects, two masters by dissertation, one masters by research, and a PhD research. Semuanya research yang berbeza pulak tu. Can you imagine, nak fikirkan research sendiri pun tak cukup nafas, inikan pulak nak fikirkan research students. But you gotta do what a so lecturer gotta do. Nak ke taknak, kena latih otak untuk fikir banyak benda dalam satu masa.

Ohh lagi satu, on top of all the supervisions part, bila dah jadi pensyarah ni, mesti tak boleh lepas dari publications. Macam I yang baru sangat kerja ni, of course la terkial-kial nak menulis. Baru nak sesuaikan diri dengan suasana kerja, at the same time nak kejar KPI pulak. Memang tak cukup tangan dibuatnya. But whether I like it or not, I still got to deal with it. So, I have already planned on a few submissions this year. This will at least be my target to work on. InsyaAllah.

I think that's enough for now. I respect semua kenalan I yang dah masuk mengajar dulu sebelum I. They must have achieved a lot throughout the years. I yang nak kena banyak belajar lagi ni. This is something quite challenging for me. Tapi takpe, everyday is a learning process right? You will learn more from things happen to you in real life. Well, as the saying goes, experience is always your best teacher. :)

ALLAH sebaik-baik pemberi rezeki

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ni hati terdetik nak kongsi kegembiraan dengan my loyal blog readers. I am not sure whether or not to publish this entry, but if you happen to read this one day, it means that everything went well according to Allah's plan, and I am all ready to share the good news with you, my lovely virtual friends. :)

Alhamdulillah, up to this date, I am 6 weeks pregnant today (3rd June 2015). The waiting game has finally come to the end. After trying to conceive (TTC) for more than two years (26 months to be exact), akhirnya sampai jugak masa yang Allah dah tetapkan dan Dia akhirnya tiupkan rezeki yang paling berharga dalam hidup kami suami isteri.

For those who were easily got pregnant after you get married, you might not really understand how does the pressure of getting pregnant is taking on us (the TTCians). Hanya yang dah lalui je akan faham perasaan tu. Juggling in between the desire to become a mother and to accept the fact that Allah has better plan is really not easy, I tell you.

At the early stage of my marriage, tiap-tiap bulan I rasa macam satu permainan. Dan setiap kali red aunty datang melawat tu la I terpaksa pujuk diri sendiri, telling myself that this is not the time yet, and the time will definitely come one day. It usually takes me a few days to get better, and continue my life as nothing had happened.

If you want to talk about how much effort we have put in order to get us only one baby, trust me, you will never believe how much money we had spent in indulging ourselves with supplements, medical check-ups, alternative medicines, good and healthy (and expensive) foods, you just name it, semua dah try. But we plan, He plans, and indeed, he is the best of planners.

After one year, kitorang rasa makin selesa hidup berdua and tak letak harapan tinggi sangat dah setiap bulan. Tapi yang pastinya, doa tak pernah putus, semoga Allah sentiasa bukak pintu rezeki kami, bukan dalam bentuk anak saja, tapi dalam segala segi. He listens to all our prayers, and started granting us with rezeki in different methods, one after another. 

And at the same time, usaha kami untuk memperbaiki diri tak pernah putus. I amalkan cara hidup sihat, makan benda-benda sihat, makan supplements, pergi berurut and macam-macam lagi la. Until one day, the scheduled period is late for almost two weeks, and I started to feel some unusual changes to my body, then one fine morning I decided to do pregnancy test right before Subuh prayer.

Anddddd the result is beyond my expectation. Faham tak perasaan nak check, tapi takde perasaan nak tau result tu macam mana? I kept telling myself that it is okay if the result is negative, boleh pergi jumpa Dr and discuss kalau-kalau ada problem ke tak. But the result is actually the other way around. Double lines clearly displayed on the test stick. I was amazed. Woww, the stick is telling me that I am pregnant. :)

I macam takut-takut lagi nak bagitau husband. Percaya tak percaya la orang kata. Kitorang solat subuh sama-sama, and he wanted to take a short nap after that. I pun bangun buat kerja lain, mandi, solat dhuha, and solat syukur, and kejutkan husband untuk siap-siap nak keluar lepas tu. Time tu jugak I tunjuk the test stick, he smiled and hugged me. Allah tau banyak mana kami usaha, and He finally answered our prayers. The feeling was beautiful, very beautiful.


p/s: I have been keeping this entry in the draft for quite a long time, and today, sempena tahun baru, I am ready to let this entry out. What I am trying to deliver here is that, especially to my fellow TTCians, jangan pernah berhenti usaha dan doa. Allah saja yang boleh bagi jawapan tentang bila dan apa yang Dia nak anugerahkan kita sebagai rezeki. I can never be any more grateful, and verily, His plan is definitely the best. :)

Goodbye 2015. You have been great!

Assalamualaikum,

Ehem ehem.. Lamanya tak menulis. I am not going to blame the time as what I normally do. Banyak je masa yang boleh curi-curi sebenarnya, cuma mood menulis tu yang tak sampai. However, as the year is approaching the end, I feel like writing something out sebagai kenangan untuk hari terakhir tahun ni. Well, to sum up everything, 2015 has been really beautiful to me. It was very very beautiful I couldn't really describe every single thing in words properly.

Tahun 2015 adalah tahun yang sangat bermakna sepanjang hidup I di muka bumi ni. Allah swt has granted me with so many beautiful things one after another, but the most significant two are my work as a young lecturer in USM and new experience as an expecting mother.

Yes, I am expecting my very first child in 4 weeks time. I have been keeping this to myself since forever. Hanya sedara mara terdekat atau kawan-kawan yang pernah terserempak je yang tau about the change in me, physically obviously. Tapi bila dah semakin dekat dengan delivery date, I think I will need extra doa from the others as well.

InsyaAllah kalau tak ada apa-apa aral, I dijadualkan bersalin penghujung bulan Januari 2016. What a nice way to start my new year, isn't it? And after almost 3 years of waiting very patiently, I dengan my husband kena betul-betul bersedia untuk menggalas tanggungjawab baru as a new parents. I know it's not going to be very smooth and easy, but I think we are ready. :)

This blog has been keeping my life journey since 6 years ago, and being pregnant is one of the most remarkable journey in my life. So I decided to commemorate a few photos that I would love to look at again and again when I get older later on. Sebenaqnya bila dah mula perubahan fizikal yang mendadak, memang takdak mood nak ambik gambaq pun with your bump showing off. Tapi ada a few yang I rasa patut simpan jadi kenangan, so I decided to keep them here. :)

My significant other.
Thank you for your patience and love in handling this cranky pregnant lady. :p

Almost 9-month pregnant. Looking hugeeeeee like a world globe.
T___T

Pregnant sisters. Our delivery dates are close to each other.

So, I think that's all from me for 2015. I don't expect myself to write more in 2016, but if I do, hopefully I boleh share banyak benda yang lebih bermanfaat untuk bacaan semua. Thank you for treating me well 2015, I am looking for more and more beautiful things next year. Till then people, see you next time. Bye bye! :*