Blessed at 39

Hi!

Today marks the final day of November and my birthday month will officially be over. 

At 39 years old, I discover so many things about myself that I never thought I would in the past. Life has taught me so well I begin to realize certain things are destined to happen not the way we planned. No matter how careful we have planned our steps, sometimes life has a different plan. Right?

Anyway, November 2024 has been great. I love and cherish every single bit of it. I need to make sure that I am all ready to manage my emotions well, make sensible decisions, resolve conflicts and stress and adapt to change, which helps me grow and learn.

I will continue to enjoy my thirties before the big 4-0 says hello next year. 

Happy birth month dear self! 😊

Bye! 

Manifesting What You Really Want in Your Life

Assalamualaikum,

It feels nice to be here again :)

Looks like the momentum is still going strong, hence, another post after the long pause. I am so proud of myself. :)

So hari ni, my main intention is to share an inspirational story based on my own experience. Many of us would think that to share your personal tale, you need to live extraordinary lifestyle, or at least you need to be famous. But to me, if your story can make a difference to at least one person who's reading it, that could be an important inspiration someone might need at his/her inauspicious time. They could be your friends, your own family members or if you are lucky, many others.

I am going to start by sharing a very simple life story today and show you how manifesting something that you really really want will turn thoughts into reality.  Before that, let me introduce myself just in case if you don't know me yet. Maklumlah kan, dah 7 tahun hilang dari radar.😄 I am Amirah, a mathematics lecturer at a public university in Penang, Malaysia, the well renowned Universiti Sains Malaysia. Perkataan lecturer and Universiti Sains Malaysia I sengaja bold kan ada sebab dia. Wait for it. hehe.

Part 1: Lecturer

When I was in primary school, I always wanted to become a lecturer WALAUPUN I didn't have the slightest idea yang kerja jadi pensyarah tu sebenarnya dia buat apa. The only thing that I knew, it sounds so cool sebab boleh kerja dalam universiti dekat tempat orang yang dah besar. So, tiap-tiap kali tulis buku biodata masa kecik-kecik dulu, mesti dengan yakinnya I akan letak cita-cita sebagai lecturer/pensyarah. I letak bukti dekat sini walaupun terpaksa cover parts lain sebab rasa nak lempang diri sendiri. hahahaha.

Once upon a time in 1997 (27 years ago), when I was in standard 6.

Bukti cita-cita dari kecik memang nak jadi pensyarah.

Wajib isi dalam semua buku biodata kawan-kawan sebelum habis sekolah.

Cute/colourful handwriting. Signature siap ada star 🌟. 

Omg, I cringed looking at this. What was I thinking that time? 😂

But, it's okay. This is a treasure I would want to keep forever. 😊

So, that time, everyone close to me knew very well about me wanting to be a Pensyarah. My parents, siblings, teachers, friends, semua lah. Cuma masa tu, I couldn't really tell more details like where would my work place be, when I am going to start becoming a lecturer, and what subjects I am going to be interested in. Everything was still very vague that time. Come on, you were only 12 years old, Amirah. Give yourself time. 

Then moving on to the next chapter of my life, I went to a lower secondary school near my house, somewhere in Butterworth, with the same ambition, still to become a pensyarah. There, I became one of the top students in Maths subject, competing over a bunch of highly intelligent Chinese guys and managed to put myself as part of the Maths enthusiasts team. It was there and then that I realized on my passion over numbers and solving Maths problems was really my thing. 

Part 2: Universiti Sains Malaysia

Subsequently, in Year 2000 when I was 15 years old, I attended a motivation camp by Dr. Shukri Abdullah (anyway, he is my parents' good friend 😁) dekat Dewan Tuanku Syed Putra (DTSP), Universiti Sains Malaysia (USM) as a preparation for Peperiksaan Menengah Rendah (PMR). I even had pictures of me and my best friends taken at the beautiful and shady area nearby the hall and also the iconic red stairs beside DTSP.

Who would have thought at that particular time yang my current workplace is situated far at the back of this photo? Not me.

One of our favourite photos together taken at the iconic red stairs. 

Still exists until today. :)

Taken in December 2022 when one of my best friends in the above pictures visited me at work.

We re-created the red stairs photo minus two members.

My girlfriends over 30 years. They knew almost everything about me. In and out. From the innocent 12-year old little girl, to the 15-year old highly energetic teen, and to the 39 years old full grown lady. They witness everything.

In the old pictures I shared above, it was actually not my first time visiting USM. Walaupun dah pernah masuk beberapa kali dah sebelum-sebelum tu, tapi tak pernah rasa apa-apa pun, apatah lagi terfikir untuk kerja dekat USM. But my visit in Year 2000 was the beginning of everything. I instantly fell in love with USM and started to manifest it as my future work place without knowing anything what this place has to offer.  Yes, at 15yo, I knew exactly where I am going to spend almost half of my life already. Isn't that ironic?😊

From then on, I visualized it very clearly in my mind that one day I will become a mathematics lecturer at Universiti Sains Malaysia. And I worked really hard to achieve the thing I wanted so much. I can tell very confidently now that, manifesting for a thing that you really longed for is not as easy as wishing that thing to happen smooth sailing. It's more about setting your goals very clearly and align with your actions towards achieving it. Not easy, but the journey is going to be beautiful. Trust me. 😊

So, if you have a certain thing that you really want it to happen in your life, put it in your highest dream, manifest it, and work towards it. Who knows, by strongly believing it, one day you can achieve your desired dream. All the best! 

Back after a long hiatus

Hi,

And hi again. :)

It has been a while right? A really really long while since I last wrote something here. No doubt, I missed writing.

A few days ago, I came back to check on my older posts, and I was like, mann, I don't even remember some of the things I shared here especially all my experiences during UOW days. I laughed hard upon reading something very ridiculous or embarassing, and I did shed some tears when I read anything that triggered my emotions. 😢Then I realize that even though the moments may have ended, the memories commemorated here still remain and are not bound by time. They certainly become a precious treasure.

At that point in time, I feel like there's this sudden urge of 'let's do something' and improving my life through what I'm genuinely passionate about. I have so many things in mind already. I am planning to write more on anything that will inspire people based on my own experiences and perhaps talents. 

As a start, let me tell you something. I am now writing while waiting for my KTM ride. Long story short, I'm having a time-off from a set of hectic schedule, and I decided to wind myself down by doing something that I've been wanting to do for a very long time. Ha, apa tu? Train ride to nowhere. Yes, nowhere. 😂 Bunyi tak berapa menarik kan?  Kalau shopping best la jugak. Haha. Yang tu lain kali pun boleh. But in train ride, you can take on the scenery, listen to your favourite music and paling best, observing people. I finally get the chance to do it today. So, so happy! 😁

To do this (especially if you are a female and alone), first, you need to be confident. Yes, ni yang paling penting sebab you need to handle many ad-hoc situations with grace and maturity. Then, you need to know where to go and what to do. Therefore, planning ahead would really help. If you have company tak apa, random outing without proper planning is usually the best one. But I am telling you about going out alone now, so please plan properly like checking on the train schedule, identifying the line that you are heading to, confirming correct platforms, ticketings and macam-macam lagi lah. Jangan la nampak macam taktau apa sangat, tu bahaya. 

After 1-hour of observing people, I reached here :)

Then finally, the most important one is don't talk to strangers. Tak payah ramah sangat nak sembang dengan orang sebelah pun tak apa. You can do that next time when you are not alone. Kali ni, just focus on yourself, minimize interactions, and just enjoy the things that you really want to do, alone. There are many more sebenarnya. Tapi yang kat atas ni yang paling penting. If you can at least do all the above, you are likely ready to travel and conquer the world. 🦸‍♀️

Okay, I think that's too much already for a quick hi and ice breaking after a long long hiatus. I really want to write longer, but let's keep that for next time. Bye!