Proud of myself..=)

Assalamualaikum,

Hye dear...It has been 3 days since my housemate, Kak Ean gone back to Malaysia leaving me all alone in this house..But living by myself in this small-yet-very comfy house is not very bad after all..I was quite nervous during the first night but I made it!!This is something that I can be proud of..The remaining few days should be okay..hehe..ala,sminggu je pun..next weekend I'll have Laili to replace Kak Ean..HAPPY!!=))

Owh, I forgot to tell you that I spent my money on a few things last Friday..The story happened to be like this..That day I followed Fairus to send Kak Ean at Sydney Kingsford's international Airport. On our way back to Wollongong, we stopped at a few places that caused my money flew away.teehee..xpe la,bukan slalu..(alasan je ni)..(^_~)

First, we stopped at Corelle Factory Outlet in Oiordan St (ntah betol ke x eja,but something like this la) and I grabbed one 20 pieces Enhancements set which cost me AUD 71.95..the original price is AUD 89.90 but I got it for 30% discount..lepas dah bayar rasa rugi plk x amik 2 set..akhirnya I terjebak jugak dlm dunia Corell ni..hehe..=))

My very first Livingware Set (Enhancements)
(photo courtesy www.corelle.com.au)

Then, our next stopped was at Canterbury Factory Outlet store which is just a few hundred meters from Corelle Outlet.. I'm not a big fan of Canterbury or Wallabies or what so ever, but I still bought something for my father and BF..2 polo shirts that cost me about AUD 40..atleast I have something for them that people won't easily get in Malaysia..=))

Original Canterbury polo shirt that you can hardly get outside Oz or NZ

(photo courtesy from www.canterburyofnz.com)

Then, Fairus brought me to Birkenhead Point Shopping Centre at Drummoyne.. This the place where you can shop whilst enjoying the spectacular view of Sydney Harbour and browsing through a huge range of your favourite fashion, food and lifestyle brand..I bought myself a pair of jeans from Levi's,Skinny Slim Fit, Heather Blue..murah beb,only AUD 39.90..kalo kat Malaysia busuk2 pun mesti RM180..So,mmg patut beli pun..=))

My new jeans
(photo courtesy from www.levis.com.au)

Can't you see how a single day could cost me around AUD200 which is equivalent to RM600..Ni pun dah kira terer sebab I manage to control my desires from buying other unnecessary-yet-very interesting things like shoes, dresses, blouses, perfumes, handbags bla..bla..bla.. Owh, I'm soo proud of myself!!teeheee..(^_~)

Bondi Beach

Hye Diary boy,

U're doing great, aren't you?Owh,I didn't tell you that I spent my Saturday in Sydney last week..Can you imagine, I went out as early as 6am and came back at 8pm..It was really tiring though..But all the tiredness were worthwhile..shopping sape yg x suke kan.ehehe.. :p I bought myself a few clothes and 2 pairs of sandals as a preparation for the coming summer..I really need them indeed.. =))

One more thing, I went to Bondi beach too..It was my first time being there okay..and it is true when people said that you can see people splattered all over the famous Sydney suburb beach in Bondi..for those yg nak "cuci mata" tu,tempat ni mmg perfect.wakakaka..

"Bondi Beach is one of Australia's most famous beaches and among the world's most well known beaches. The beach is roughly a kilometre long and is patrolled by lifesavers who make swimmers stay between the yellow and red flags."

Bondi Beach

(photo courtesy http://www.flickr.com)

Here are some photos of me in Bondi!!!

Bondi Iceberg: swimming pool with ocean water

Look at the the wave..simply breathtaking!!

What a very awe-inspiring view in Bondi..

You'll love Bondi as much as I did..trust me!!=))

Bumblebee loves Bondi too!!!ehehe..

Rain

Dear Diary,

It has been raining,raining and raining again all day..and you know what happen to me during rainy day rite..It's not like I hate the rain..no!no!I just don't like the feeling inside my heart whenever I see the fresh cold water pouring from the sky..For me, falling raindrops are depicted as teardrops..Why??maybe because in my mind, I imagine that raindrops are like "teardrops-shaped"..is it true??hmm...The answer for the above question is WRONG!ehehe..okay,let me share something with you..when I was looking at the raindrops outside of my window just now, I asked myself what is the shape of them?Then I started googling for the information and I found something new for me..and might be for others too..hehe..

Well, fyi, small raindrops are nearly spherical..do I need to explain how spherical looks like??No rite..I know my diary boy is clever enough..=)) Larger raindrops become increasingly flattened on the bottom..just imagine like my favourite "Spicy Chicken McDeluxe" from McD..so, they look like burgers..and very large ones are in the form of parachutes..

Raindrops with spherical-shaped

(photo courtesy from http://people.msoe.edu )

For some people, rain metaphorically has a sad and negative implication in comparison to the bright happy sunlight..However, looking at the other side, rain can also bring joy as they are soothing or we can enjoy the artistic appeal of it..But for me, I look at the bright side of the rain..appreciating the great creation of The Al-Mighty..Thanks Allah..

Strange weather

Hello Mr Diary,

I was doing my work just now and out of the blue I feel really cold in my office..Australian weather is completely odd u know..It was extremely hot (38 degree celcius) yesterday and all of a sudden it turns out to be freezing cold (16.9 degree celcius) today..and it is showering too..haishhh..

Different type of weathers

(photo courtesy http://lingue.altervista.org )

Everyday I need to check on the weather forecast before I go out so that I'll know what to wear for that day..If not I will end up shivering because of the coldness or sweating in hotness..This is good about this strange weather as it teachs me to be an organize as well as systematic person..huahuahua!!

p/s: I miss Malaysian weather to the max!!somebody bring me back plish..now!!yes,rite now!!huhu..=(

Birthday Wish

Dear Diary,

I talked to my BF last night..and it was not a very smooth conversation tho..I don't know why I keep crying while talking to him..I told you earlier that I was soo sad being alone on a special day for me rite..I told him the same thing, hoping that he will understands..of course he did understands..thank you love..

But then, he said something..making me realize that I am very weak all this while as I rely too much on other people..(people here means my family and him only)..xtau kenape..manja sgt kot..Having heard that, I told myself to be emotianally powerful after this..I know that it's real hard for me since I was showered with double extra loves and tenderness since I was born 24 years ago..But I have to learn from now on..and this will be my birthday wish for this year indeed..Do pray for me kay my dear diary..

Dear love,
You're real special to me..
I realize that I can't do much without you..
But I promise myself not to be too dependent on you..
I'll try my best to be stronger and wiser as well..
Thanks for everything..
I love you soo much..and the love is even more now..

p/s: Note on my birthday:

1. I got a very cute bithday present from my officemate, Pearl today..thanks a lot!!=) =)
2. One more thing, I've got myself H1N1 vaccin today..it's like a birthday present for myself..good precaution..=)

My 24th Birthday

Happy Birthday to me~~~
Happy Birthday to me~~~
Happy Birthday to Amirah~~~
Happy Birthday to me~~~

"Ya Allah,terima kasih di atas nikmat umur yang dipinjamkan kepadaku..
Aku sedar yang aku masih tidak cukup amanah menggunakan anugerah umur ini dengan sebaik-baiknya..
Namun,aku masih mengharapkan ihsan daripadamu..
Redhailah perjalanan hidupku..
Berikan aku peluang untuk menambah amalan hidupku sebagai bekalan untuk hari perhitungan kelak..
Panjangkan umurku Ya Allah supaya aku dapat membalas jasa kedua ibu dan bapaku..
Jika aku ditakdirkan untuk kembali kepada-Mu, matikanlah aku di dalam Iman dan Islam..
Sesungguhnya hanya kepada-Mu tempat untuk aku memohon pertolongan..
Amin..amin..Ya Rabbal Alamin.."

~Selamat ulang tahun yang ke-24~

Tik..tok..tik..tok..

Dear Diary,

I am writing this while nervously waiting for the clock to turn into 12am in a couple of hours. It means that I'll officially be 24 yo this year..And I don't know why am I crying right now..Feeling soo sad..being away from my loved ones I guess..This is the first time in my life celebrating my birthday all alone..Before this, there will always be people that I love around me..If it is not my family, I'll have my BF with me..and I also had experience celebrating with my beloved friends..

My teary eyes

(photo courtesy from http://www.flickr.com/photos)

But now,I'm alone...It's not like I don't have friends here..No!No!There are lots of lovely people around me..It's just that they don't realize my birth date..yeah,I just met them for a few months and they still don't know much about me..same goes to me..I don't know much about them either..It doesn't really matter anyway..

Stop crying dearest heart..You're not alone..Always remember that..

Numerical results

Hye Mr Diary,

I have no idea on what I'm doing rite now.. There are lots of things on my mind..It's just that I don't know where to start..Well,I just got the solution for my numerical problem that I've been working on since 3 weeks ago I guess..But, I'm not sure whether it is correct or not.The graph looks obviously odd..sighs...

My result (urghhh,peliknye...)

I'm sure you don't understand what the ____ is going on above..I know..I know..forgive me..This is a matter of sharing..I need somebody to talk to my dear..Okay, let me explain..I'm working on a problem called numerical solution for Korteweg de Vries equation..My supervisor asked me to solve the problem using fourth order Runge-Kutta method. I'm using Maple programming in obtaining the solution..Don't ask me about the code please unless if you are ready to get drawn into those weird codes..So,here we go!!my solution is like the above graph..I'm not going to know whether this is correct or not until I show this to my supervisor in our meeting at 11am tomorrow...I hope his comment won't dissappoint me..finger cross!!=)

Weekends

Dear Diary,

Last weekend was a laidback week for me.I did nothing!!!I mean nothing related to my research..On friday night one friend came for sleepover and a few guys next door also joined us (diorang x tdo at my house ye..lepak2 je). We played card and chatted until 5 in the morning..woww!!it is considered very late for me. As a result, I woke up at 11 in the next morning..teeheee..:p Bangun je terus terbau nasik lemak..My housemate (Kak Ean) prepared a super delicious nasik lemak+ scrumptious sambal tumis ikan bilis, the best dat I ever had in Aussie..fuhhh!!finger licking good I tell you..=) The meal looks very much alike the picture below..meleleh air liur tgk..huhu..I miss Malaysian food!!!

(Picture courtesy from http://www.flickr.com/ )

After having the yummilicious meal, we spent another couple of hours chatting about life around us..then only I knew that my friend just break-off her engagement after 8 years being in relationship with her ex-fiancee..I was soo shocked to hear that but I saw her looking at the separation in a positive way..But I know, deep in her heart must be bleeding sooo badly that no medication can cure it now. But someday I hope she'll meet someone who's really fated for her.aminnn..

Actually, I do feel worry with long distance relationship sometimes..haishhh..Hey, I promised myself not to think negatively on this matter..So, leave it to Allah the Almighty. HE knows it all..If I and my BF are fated to be together, Alhamdulillah...the rest is beyond our control..think positive..think positive..=)

Things to keep myself busy

Good Afternoon Diary..=)

Sorry for not updating anything yesterday..I was quite busy and nothing much to share I guess..Well,fyi I've been selected as a new MAS UOW committee for session 2009/2010. MAS UOW stands for Malaysian Association for Student in University of Wollongong and almost all Malaysian student in this uni are officially registered as members of this club no matter they're under sponsorship program or self sponsored. I was asked to take care of the welfare of the club and I hope by joining this committee will make me become more responsible especially in managing my time. However, I hope by holding a small responsibility like this won't require much from me except when there are occasions..Ok la tu,xde la I boring sgt xde xtvt kat sini..

Owh, I emailed my supervisor just now (he's not available this week and I can just contact him thru email) asking for suggestion in graph plotting in my Maple programming. I hope he will responds by today so that I have something to make myself busy on this coming weekend. Before this I don't really work on Saturdays n Sundays. But now I do feel comfortable working on weekends since I don't have much to do at home.Hey,let me tell u a secret, in reality I only do works for a couple of hours in my office. The rest apa lagi,main internet lahh..free kan.ehehe.. :p

Lady

Assalamualaikum,

Good morning diary..I mentioned that I wanted to start writing yesterday rite..Honestly,i didn't.sighs..but I did some reading on modulation theory and i managed to cover 2 articles. It is better than nothing rite (ayat menyedapkan hati)..hehe..But today I will continue reading the remaining 4 articles and summarize each of them before I can start writing on this topic..=)

Another thing is, I didn't join the aerobic dance class that I told you I would yesterday. It was not because I don't want to..I swear!!I was really excited to go only until I realize that I forgot to wear my sport shoes to the office yesterday..double sighs...How can you join a sport activity without a proper attire rite.I brought pink baby-tee, black tight (which is suitable for aerobic dance), hair-band, minus sport shoes..haish..what a life. When we really want to do something, there'll always be another thing that'll be the obstacle..nvm, I'll still have class on Thursday..

My shoes that I forgot to wear with slightly different colour
(photo courtesy from http://www.puma.com)

Owh, back to the title for my entry today. LADY..It is a polite way of saying "woman". The word is usually reffered to a title that is used before the name of a woman who has a high position. Eg: Lady Diana. Well, last night I watched a reality TV program; Ladette to Lady (Aussie). For ur information a ladette is loud, foul-mouthed and uncultured young women, who like to drink and smoke and who are often sexually promiscious.

Example of a well groomed lady. Late Lady Diana Spencer

(Picture courtesy from http://www.casafree.com/)

In this program, a few ladettes (8 of them in last night's show) are given 5-week course on how to behave like a traditional lady. I do not want to discuss more about the classes since it will take forever to describe on how did they behave at the beginning. I will only focus on one particular thing. Okay, a laddete had been scolded because she was caught hugging a man and kissing him like they owned this world while they're at the middle of a cocktail party. The principal said, "A lady will NEVER, EVER put her arm around a man and kiss him like mad. It is simply disgusting". What I want to highlight here that, it is not only in Islam that we are prohibited to do that, but also in other cultural behaviours too. WHY?? I just want to share this and I will leave the rest for you to think..=)

Modulation Theory

Hello Bestfriend!!

This morning I came to my office with a target on what to work with for at least a couple of hours for today that is to make some reading on modulation theory. I have to gather as much information as I can (which is already inside my bright red file), digest them, come out with a proper outlines, and summing them up so that it is easy for me to refer later and at least my supervisor can easily read and understand them when it is time to show him my pile of work..

I spent 15mins to search for related articles in my file on this topic and I found six most related ones. I hope by this evening I achieve my target to read all of them or at least half of the loads.finger cross.!!hehe..

Owh btw , I forgot to let you know that I have plan to join aerobic dance class today. Hey,I can hear you laughing!!i know..i know..it's funny isn't it?? I abandoned my responsibility on taking care of my stamina since I came to Australia 3 months ago. Aerobic dance is not a new thing for me okay. I used to join the activity for quite so long before this. Three times a week at least!! But I kept my body at rest for 3months and now only I have the chance to start burning the fat again. That's why I decided to join the class. The class will be held at URAC and it is called Body Burn.

"BodyBURN is a medium intensity aerobic component, using basic moves on a STEP REEBOK platform, with a focus on sculpting & toning the lower half of the body, while working in a fat burning zone."

Picture courtesy from http://www.deportes.ozu.es/indice/Aerobic

Late

Good afternoon Mr Diary,

I just reached my office at 11.30am and for your information I walked to the uni today..Yes,walking under the bright sun!!hehe..but of course I used my favourite purple umbrella to protect me from skin pigmentation. It was not really far tho..the distance between my new house and the uni is roughly about 2km and it takes only 15mins of walking. Not very bad rite..It's just that when you have to walk in the middle of extra bright sunlight when everybody is trying to catch the bus seems quite out of usual..

Actually, I waited for the bus at 10.50am this morning hoping to catch the 10 after 11 ride. Exactly at 11.10am, I saw my favourite green Gong bus coming and get ready standing by the roadside waiting for the bus to turn to the bus stop where I was waiting. Unfortunately, the driver didn't stop at the station where I was waiting and leave me behind. sighs...But I can't blame the driver because it is very obvious that the bus was full and it is wrong for him to squeeze extra passengers inside the bus. Then, I decided to walk instead of waiting for another 20mins for the next bus to come. This is the reason why I turned out to be late today..=)

Route map for my favourite free shuttle Gong Bus
(photo courtesy from http://www.premierillawara.com.au/shuttle)

I really want to start writing today but I don't know where to start.. (writing here means my research stuffs not the one that I am doing rite now)..hehe.. I know that I have lots of things to write but I haven't even start yet. Let me make a list here so that next time I can just check on this page..

1. Modulation theory (Modulation equations for KdV equation to be exact)
2. Dispersive relation
3. Numerical solution of KdV equation (4th order Runge Kutta and Central Difference Method)
4. Initial Boundary value Problem for KdV Equation (Modified,extended,etc...)

Actually I have more things to be included in the list but these are the most important ones. I hope that I will have the courage to cover all and at least come out with something that I can be proud of by next week.. Amiinn..

"The only way to be better in writing is by writing itself "

Update

Assalamualaikum and hello to myself..=)

It has been a while since I last updated my Mr Diary..can I call this a diary?yes of course!!I mentioned that this will be a medium for me to talk to myself about anything as well as everything!!Well,let me update you Mr Diary about what is going on around. I think there are bunch of things that you need to catch up since I abandoned you for quite so long. My apologize Mr Diary..=)

In case if you didn't notice, I am no longer in my lovely hometown back in Malaysia.. I am abroad now at a new (quite isolated) place called Wollongong. Guess where it is?? Thailand? Indonesia? owh,no you're totally wrong..It is located at the south of Sydney or you can say that it is at the South Coast of New South Wales, Australia. Wollongong is in Aussie okayy!! Yes, Australia..not in Thailand , Indonesia or anywhere else.. One day I will update some photos of me and this new place okay.Now you got it?? good boy my diary..=)

Wollongong beach
(photo courtesy from http://www.flickr.com)


Famous Wollongong Lighthouse
(photo courtesy from http://www.trekearth.com/gallery/Oceania)

What am I doing here??Of course I didn't turn out to have fun here.. I am studying in University of Wollongong now..yeah,back to the student life again..Approximately, I've been here for three months and life is getting better day by day. I hope this will continue until I complete my studies after 3 years. InsyaAllah.. Please don't ask about how do I feel being apart from my loved ones in Malaysia since the answer will be my teary eyes. Then you know what's the feeling.

My university

Life as a student (full time PhD student to be exact) is not easy. People might think that it is simple since you don't need to focus on other things except for your studies. But actually it is NOT. What makes life becomes harder is when you have to be really independent and manage your little given time wisely. This involves your own attitude. Nobody will force you to do this or that, but you have to ask yourself to do it for you. Yeah maybe other people would say that it is good coz you don't have to deal with deadlines or scary boss. But for me it is definitely not like what people can imagine. Put yourself in this situation then you will know. But to comfort myself, I will say that nothing in this world is easy. No matter you're a PhD student, lecturer, engineer, medical Dr, lawyer or anybody else. The thing is how you manage your own time. Pray that I will end this nightmare as soon as possible so that I can go back and serve my country as a lecturer in Universiti Sains Malaysia. Amiinnn...=)

White Admiral. Why?

Dear Diary,

People keep asking me why I love to use the word white_admiral in my informal signatory. Well, the history happened to be like this. I used to have a hobby when I was in my lower secondary school which was about 10yrs back..emm, not really a hobby, but kind of habit.. Reading the dictionary!! Yeah, you can call me lame or whatever, but that's the truth.hehe. Masa tu form 3 kot.. I would take ten minutes before sleep time to read one page of the dictionary.. From word to word..Then one day, I came up with this word, white-admiral.. It sounded very nice n the meaning really caught my attention. A BUTTERFLY..the scientific term for white admiral is Limenitis Arthemis .

Limenitis Arthemis is a polytypic species of North American brush-footed butterfly, common throughout much of the eastern United States. It has red spots on its underwing and the top of the wings are notable for their iridescent blue markings. On the other hand, it has a large white band traversing both the fore and hindwings.

White Admiral. Beautiful..Isn't it?

At first, I love it for the word itself.. Then when I find out more about it in depth, I love it for the creation behind the word.. A beautiful and strong butterfly that flies from the early morning until soon after dusk... Great creation isn't it? And from there, I started to describe myself as white admiral. For those who are close to me might have known this, but for those who haven't, this might be a little extra information for ya!!hehe..

~The First Touch~

Hello to all!!

Well,this is the starting point of everything..where Amirah starts writing..I've been following lots n lottsss of other people's blogs before this..n i love reading blogs..this is where i can catch up with their latest updates n even figure out wat is happening around them lately.. But somehow i never have the feeling of creating one.. I mean my own.. the correct word for it might be malassss kot..but on this Friday afternoon suddenly i feel like creating a space for me to write on jus about anything.. this might be like a breathing space for me where i can come out with anything.. freely.. At first, i dun have the plan to xpose it to the others.. this is like me with my own world.. but one day,if u happen to read this, meaning that all of u are welcome to be part of my world..(^_~)