Jingle Bell..Jingle Bell..

Hye sweetheart!!

You're doing good, aren't you? Owh, I'm sooo in the shopping mood today.. with the Christmas Sale everywhere plus Boxing Day is coming soo soon.. I came to the office just now, keep changing my programming codes for one hour (but still, the desired solution is wayyyy from the one that I've got just now) then suddenly I feel like I wanna make some lists on what to buy during Boxing Day on 26th December..yeehaaa!!! kalau suruh buat programming muka x manis memanjang, bila ckp nak buat shopping list laju jek..ish3..but what to do, I believe everybody is like that..same goes to u rite sweetie..:p

Okay, there are lot of things on my mind rite now and of course I need to choose the ones that are the best and of course, suit my budget...that's crucial!!!Help!!Help!!

Here are the items in my shopping list

Boots: Budget AUD100-150

Annah Boots from Nine West Australia


VS

Adasia from Nine West Australia

Perfumes: Budget AUD100-150

I need to choose 2 from 3 items on the list..I wish that I can increase the amount in my budget but I couldn't..otherwise I will just grab all 3 of them..sighs..

Miss Dior Cherie from Dior

VS

Princess from Vera Wang

Jeans: Budget AUD100-150

Guess jeans

515 from Levi's

Owh, I've to start thinking on what to choose from now coz when the day comes I just want to grab and pay so that I don't have to waste my time at one particular item.. Many more things waiting ahead..lalalala~~~

p/s: Kempen berjimat cermat sebelum n selepas Boxing Day telah bermula..nak shopping punya pasai..adehhh..

Blacky Dearest

Dear Diary,

It is 11.10pm now..and there is still no sign for me to sleep yet.. I keep thinking on something for the whole day today.. Perhaps i miss something..hmmm, many things literally..but I keep on thinking about my Blacky over and over again today..

How's his condition? Is the engine works as good as what I left just before I flew here? Is he shines handsomely as he always does? Did somebody send him to the workshop for his regular service on the correct time?? There are soo many things on my mind about him now.. Damn, I know that I miss him soo badly, terribly!!

Owh, I know you don't understand what the heck that I'm talking about now.. Who's Blacky? What does he means to me? Okay dearie, for your information i have him longgg before i have u in my life.. Sorry for not telling u earlier but there he is.. the love of my life.. You have to accept the fact that there's some'thing' else who is close (really2 close) to me apart from you.. But it doesn't mean that i don't love you okay sweetie.. You're the closest now as i feel like I always need to share with you EVERYTHING about me and my life here in the Land Down Under..

Okay, Blacky is my car.. Yes, my very first, my own car.. I had him since 26 Dec 2007 and up until now he has been with me for almost 2 years.. OMG, this means that he's going to celebrate his 2nd birthday soon.. Owh, poor you my dear Blacky.. I'm not going to be there for u on your birthday.. I can't send you to your favourite carwash to clean u up and buy new fragrance for u.. You gotta be alone this year baby..and maybe for another 3 years to come.. I'm soo sorry about this.. Be strong okay coz I'll definitely love u more eventho we're far apart..

Me and my Blacky at Restoran Jejantas Ayer Keroh on our back from JB to Penang

Me and him at Tanjung Balau, Kota Tinggi

p/s: Look at both of the above pictures.. Can't you see how much I differ.. Goshh!! Am I that thin before this or am I this fat rite now?? but who cares.. I love being myself.. and you love the way i am too rite?? I know you did..***Hugssssss***

Another interesting weekend

Hello bestfriend!!

Sorry for deserting you away for about 4days sweetie..I had a real busy+full+exciting weekend til I dun have time to even sneak a quick look on u.. But it doesn't mean that u're thrown out of my life coz now I'm gonna share everything with u on the things that I've done for the last 2 days..This gonna be a longgg one.. Ready to hear everything now??? Good boy dearie..=))

Ok, let me start with Saturday.. Woke up around 8am and as usual, I did all the bibik's chores.. Went out to the fruit market, Aldi, Vina, Dom Phuong, and Warrawong to get some groceries.. Emm, not forgetting 2 new dresses..hehe.. Actually, I and laili decided to cook Bihun Soup and we invited our friends from Gundi to come and eat with us.. The Bihun Soup project turned out soooo well and we managed to cook 3kilos of beef and finished it up within 1 day..phewww!!now I have extra storage inside my freezer.. At night, we invited Rauf and Ilyas for dinner and we spent a few hours playing card while watching Titanic until midnight..That's how my Saturday ends..a very busy one..

Then, on Sunday morning, I woke up at 9am (coz I slept at 3am on Saturday nite) and ate the breakfast that have been prepared by Laili, nasik lemak before both of us decided to go to the beach..the weather was very fine and it was a perfect day to play with the water and lay on the golden sandy beach..just like what the tourist usually did..teeheee..We never knew that this could be a real great fun and made our mind up to do it again next time..weeehooo!!

Sebelum terjun dlm air..hehe..

We spent a few hours at the beach (smpai i rasa kulit dah tukar kaler jd udang bakar), then we went back home feeling tired, exhausted and of course lapar gilaaaa!! I slept right after having my lunch and I woke up two hours after that..fuhhh..penat main air la tu..

The night before Rauf n Ilyas told us that there's going to be Eid celebration with fireworks at the lighthouse on Sunday nite and we decided to go together.. i thought there'll be makan2 free there.. rupa2nya xde..really frustrating..hehehe..luckily the fireworks show was really amazing..okay,okay, dun be mad sweetie..I'll share with u the video taken during the show owkay..

That's how 2 days in my life have been filled with interesting things.. Got to get back on the track after this..focusing on my research so that I can have fun again in the next wekend..=))

SyncMaster2333

Dear diary,

Today I'm writing while proudly looking at my new, good-looking, gigantic, wide screen computer at my office.. Samsung SyncMaster 2333sw..It comes together with a new processor as well..these new gadgets will definitely make my simulations become faster.. I've tested it just now.. The previous computer took about 300seconds to solve my simple code but with this new operating machine, it took me only 50seconds to solve exactly the same problem..Woww!! What a huge different..Thank you to the support team for this new computer.. No more reasons like slow, noisy computer anymore after this..=)

My new widescreen LCD monitor, Samsung SyncMaster 2333sw

(photo courtesy from http://www.samsung.com.au/)

It's good if I can watch movie at the office with this new monitor..segala lubang hidung orang bole npk.hehehe..But of course I can't..sighs.. There are 4 other PhD students inside this workspace.. How can I do something "interesting" like that while the others are busy with their heads-down concentrating on their research..owh, this is the real life of PhD student that I never imagine before.. Seems like I'm the only one who is "busy" with social-networking like Facebooking, Intant-messaging, etc..etc... Get back on the track dear Amirah.. You know why u're here rite... *Insaf mode*

Get to know yourself better

Dear diary,

I did a personality test which was taken from http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx just now..hmm, I did it just for fun!!! It could be true..not everything,at least some is.. Care to know me better?? Check it out!!=))

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. TRUE

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

COMPLETELY TRUE

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

VERY TRUE

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. COMPLETELY TRUE

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

NOT REALLY TRUE

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

VERY TRUE

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

INSYAALLAH

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

NOT REALLY TRUE

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

MAYBE TRUE MAYBE NOT

::Word Treasure::

Happiness Keeps You Sweet

Trials Keep You Strong

Sorrows Keep You Human

Failures Keeps You Humble

Success Keeps You Glowing

But Only GOD Keeps You Going

Foods again

Hye dear,

How is it going for you? Miss me?? I know u did..hehe..=)) I didn't update anything for the past 5 days coz I don't have much to share these days.. I told you that I need to cook something for Hari Raya AidilAdha celebration rite..I did popia goreng and that was my very first attempt..It was simply delicious!!!trust me!!!bukan nak perasan..tp mmg sedap..i followed the recipe from the net and they turned out to be gorgeous and scrumptious popia goreng ever!!and of course with a slight of modern touch..ehehe..can't wait to go back to Malaysia and let my mum taste them..=))

There will be another occassion this coming Thursday, 3rd December 2009.. Me and my officemates decided to organize morning tea at our office and of course we have to bring something for the day.. The only thing in my mind rite now is chocolate brownies..simple yet delicious!!gotta go out and buy the ingredients from Woolworths tomorrow!!

Thinking of foods

Assalamualaikum,

Hari Raya Aidil Adha is coming soon..and we're going to celebrate it at Kak Emy's house this Friday right after the prayer.. As usual, the concept is pot-luck and I don't have anything in my mind on what to bring at the moment..Heavy food is completely out of the list..let the experts do that..do you have any advise diary boy??what you'd like to have for this coming Aidil Adha??don't suggest something out of my ability kay..kuih or biscuit sounds reasonable..but I still need to do some searches on the net for the recipe..If you have anything pop-up just let me know kay..me??keep thinking..popia goreng?blueberry cheese tart?caramel pudding?chocolate brownies?cream puff?bla..bla..bla..hmm...

Thirroul Beach,Bald Hill, Stanwell Park,Luna Park

Dear diary,

As I promised yesterday, I'm going to update you about the places that I went to during my weekend getaways on Saturday. After we had our lunch at town of Berry, we proceed our journey to Sydney..But we stopped at a few places along the way before we reach Sydney..

First, we stopped at Thirroul beach..before that we bought ourselves drinks from Gloria Jeans Coffee and enjoy the refreshments that have been prepared by Wana; cheesecake..yummie!!=)) We spent nearly one hour there enjoying the view of the coast..

Then we go to Bald Hill, Stanwell Park and watched people doing activities like hand-gliding and paragliding..If only I'm not afraid of height, I'll probably grab the chance to do activities like that to..

After that, we headed to Sydney and had our dinner at Malacca Straits Restaurant which is located at Broadway..I didn't eat much coz I was still full with the foods from our tea time..Then, we decided to go to Luna Park and spend sometimes playing there..

On our way back to Wollongong, we stopped at Rockdale 24hours McD and eat ice-cream eventhough all of us were shivering because of the cold wind.hehe..xpe,yg penting seronok!! That's the end of our journey..Hope to have a wonderful trip again next time..=))

Kiama::Nowra::Two Fig Winery

Good Afternoon diary,

I just had my breakfast!!a piece of strawberry cheese cake and a glass of apple juice..yummie!!yeah,yeah..i know it's time for lunch..but i forgot to take my breakfast this morning as I was busy concentrating on bibik's chores.hehe..every Sunday is the day where I become bibik at my own house..=)) Well,I would like to share with you a very interesting thing today..If this is too long, I will consider continuing it til tomorrow..ehehe..

I spent my Saturday by exploring sooo many places and things yesterday..and it was a real exciting and exhilarating experience that I can keep in my memory..There were 5 people altogether in the trip; Fendy, Fathul, K.Mas, Wana, and myself of course.. :p We rented a car for 24hours which cost us $60..Fortunately, we were given chance to ride in Australian national car, Holden Commodore Cruze that made our journey became very comfortable and cosy..

Australian Holden Commodore Cruze

We started our tour by visiting Kiama Blowhole, which is located roughly about 120km from Sydney.. This is the place where we can see the blowhole spray water in the air in quantities that thoroughly drench any bystanders. This happens under certain sea conditions..The word Kiama is derived from an aboriginal word, which means, "where the seas make noise"..If you want to know more about it, you can google for the information okay..=)) Just have a quick look to the pictures attached below so that you can see how beautiful is the place..

Witnessing the ocean blowing up the hole

Great scenery of a well-structured rock stone

Then, we continue our journey to Nowra Wildlife Park, which is the largest native animal park on the NSW South Coast..Our main target is to see Kangaroo and Koala bear as they are the trademark of Australia. And we were very lucky because we get there just in time before the Koala Show starts.. Just like visiting Zoo Taiping in Malaysia, I had fun playing with the animals inside there..

Me and the lazy koala


Feeding the kangaroo

As we are heading down to Berry town, we stopped by at TwoFig Winery and have a close look to the farm where the grapes in producing wine is planted..Check it out!!=))

Grape's farm

A place where everybody can relax

Lunch at Berry Park

I think that's enough for now..I will continue my story with other interesting things later..catch up with you again then!!=))

Happy!!! =))

Assalamualaikum,

Hye dear!!!I'm soooo happy today... Finally I manage to come out with the solutions like what my beloved spv wants..I've been struggling doing this assignment over and over again for the past few weeks.. and I thought that it will take me forever to come out with that solution..Alhamdulillah today I made it..Now I believe what Kak Ean told me before, if you are in a great difficulties that no one can help, just tell Allah swt..He'll definitely listen to you and help you in any possible way..Thanks Allah..

Okay,let me share with you my solution..If you don't understand a bit about it, just keep one eye close..U know dat I love sharing with you rite..hehehe...*bodek* =))

This is the result that Prof Tim wants me to get

Here is my very own result

Can't you see the similiraties between the above graphs??u better say yess!!!if not I'm going to bite u!!teeheee..gila kejam..no lah..i know both graphs look slightly different..but what's crucial here is the characteristic of the graphs..He used Fortran to get his solution..but I used different type of programming..but dun worry, I'm not going to discuss much about it as I know u'll end up sleeping right in front of me.hehehe..

Hari Raya 2010???

Assalamualaikum,

Hye sweetie!!wake up..wake up!!I left you at rest only for one day, u curik2 tido eh..I don't care,u got to listen to my ramblings today..hehe..Act, I've a good news to tell you...Ha, getting excited rite???I'm not getting married yet lah!!Jgn teka yg bukan2 plz..okay,let me tell you but promise not to roll on the floor laughing okay..be good,promise??

I'VE GOT MY FLIGHT TICKET FOR HARI RAYA NEXT YEAR!!! yup,next year,2010!!!kakakakaka..me myself can't stop laughing until now..We haven't even celebrate our Hari Raya Haji for 2009 but I start talking about my next Hari Raya Aidil Fitri trip already..What can I do...Having the experience celebrating the most joyous occasion in our culture abroad this year made me feels like I don't wanna have it ever again..Once is good enough..huhu..

My flight will be on 5th September 2010 from Melbourne..And I'll probably have 5 fasting days in Malaysia and chances to eat all the foods from bazar ramadhan that I was craving for this year..Really can't wait to go back!!Owh, actually I'm going back in Feb 2010 for a short (but not really short) holiday too..but next Hari Raya trip keeps myself more excited.. Watever it is, as long as it is related to back-to-Malaysia trip, I'm getting all excited..=)) But dun worry sweetie boy, I'm not going to leave you okayy..You're my breathing space remember???hehehe..so,let's start counting the days together..yeehaaa!!

Thank you AirAsia for the cheap promo flight!!!

(photo courtesy from http://blog.flightstory.net)

p/s: These are all my plan..the rest is depending on Allah the Almighty..praying hard that I'll have more years to come..amiinnn..

Programming oh programming..

Dear diary,

I met my supervisor just now...yes,today,Monday,16/11/2009 at 11am..Don't be surprise diary boy..yeah,I know that our official appointment date is on Fridays at 11am..But today was upon request because last Friday kan I pegi shopping kat Sydney..so,kena cover balik la.teehee..:p

I need to show him my code and of course the result as well..uwaaaa!!when it comes to mathematical programming,I wish that I have Prof Dr Shaharuddin Salleh with me now.. He's my Sifu during my Undergraduate Project after all..Without him,I don't think I can reach this level and x mungkin terjebak dalam dunia programming nie..Then I met another Sifu who contributed a lot in my Master's Project, Assoc Prof Dr Ong Chee Tiong.. programming jugakkkk.. Then, I thought dah habisss,rupanya time PhD pun I've to learn from another Sifu in mathematical programming, Prof Dr Timothy Marchant..uwaaaa!!!Seems like I'm fated to live in the world of mathematical programs I guess..keep it up Amirah..do not give up okay..

Owh,back to my work..hmmm,care to look at my prog codes???I know you won't understand even a bit of it,but just have a quick look so that u have something in mind on what my life is all about rite now...The code is written in Maple progamming and this is sort of my latest result..

The coding

Now,let's look at the result

The graphical result (x versus u(x))

And you know what, this result still didn't satisfy my spv..He said that something goes wrong with the graph and I should keep playing around with the codes until I got the perfect one..the range of y in my current graph is too large and it can goes up until infinity whereas the value that I should get is 0..uwaaaa!!I'm sick of this..but I have to keep doing this..Go Amirah go!!!cheer for me okayyy!!=))

p/s: He promised to give me his codes which was written in Fortran (programming zaman Jepun..hehehe)..then I need to compare mine with his..and try to make it looks like his..yippieeee!!!baiknya supervisor sayeee..tu pun after one month I'm struggling with this programming thingy..nvm,better than nothing!!=))

Proud of myself..=)

Assalamualaikum,

Hye dear...It has been 3 days since my housemate, Kak Ean gone back to Malaysia leaving me all alone in this house..But living by myself in this small-yet-very comfy house is not very bad after all..I was quite nervous during the first night but I made it!!This is something that I can be proud of..The remaining few days should be okay..hehe..ala,sminggu je pun..next weekend I'll have Laili to replace Kak Ean..HAPPY!!=))

Owh, I forgot to tell you that I spent my money on a few things last Friday..The story happened to be like this..That day I followed Fairus to send Kak Ean at Sydney Kingsford's international Airport. On our way back to Wollongong, we stopped at a few places that caused my money flew away.teehee..xpe la,bukan slalu..(alasan je ni)..(^_~)

First, we stopped at Corelle Factory Outlet in Oiordan St (ntah betol ke x eja,but something like this la) and I grabbed one 20 pieces Enhancements set which cost me AUD 71.95..the original price is AUD 89.90 but I got it for 30% discount..lepas dah bayar rasa rugi plk x amik 2 set..akhirnya I terjebak jugak dlm dunia Corell ni..hehe..=))

My very first Livingware Set (Enhancements)
(photo courtesy www.corelle.com.au)

Then, our next stopped was at Canterbury Factory Outlet store which is just a few hundred meters from Corelle Outlet.. I'm not a big fan of Canterbury or Wallabies or what so ever, but I still bought something for my father and BF..2 polo shirts that cost me about AUD 40..atleast I have something for them that people won't easily get in Malaysia..=))

Original Canterbury polo shirt that you can hardly get outside Oz or NZ

(photo courtesy from www.canterburyofnz.com)

Then, Fairus brought me to Birkenhead Point Shopping Centre at Drummoyne.. This the place where you can shop whilst enjoying the spectacular view of Sydney Harbour and browsing through a huge range of your favourite fashion, food and lifestyle brand..I bought myself a pair of jeans from Levi's,Skinny Slim Fit, Heather Blue..murah beb,only AUD 39.90..kalo kat Malaysia busuk2 pun mesti RM180..So,mmg patut beli pun..=))

My new jeans
(photo courtesy from www.levis.com.au)

Can't you see how a single day could cost me around AUD200 which is equivalent to RM600..Ni pun dah kira terer sebab I manage to control my desires from buying other unnecessary-yet-very interesting things like shoes, dresses, blouses, perfumes, handbags bla..bla..bla.. Owh, I'm soo proud of myself!!teeheee..(^_~)

Bondi Beach

Hye Diary boy,

U're doing great, aren't you?Owh,I didn't tell you that I spent my Saturday in Sydney last week..Can you imagine, I went out as early as 6am and came back at 8pm..It was really tiring though..But all the tiredness were worthwhile..shopping sape yg x suke kan.ehehe.. :p I bought myself a few clothes and 2 pairs of sandals as a preparation for the coming summer..I really need them indeed.. =))

One more thing, I went to Bondi beach too..It was my first time being there okay..and it is true when people said that you can see people splattered all over the famous Sydney suburb beach in Bondi..for those yg nak "cuci mata" tu,tempat ni mmg perfect.wakakaka..

"Bondi Beach is one of Australia's most famous beaches and among the world's most well known beaches. The beach is roughly a kilometre long and is patrolled by lifesavers who make swimmers stay between the yellow and red flags."

Bondi Beach

(photo courtesy http://www.flickr.com)

Here are some photos of me in Bondi!!!

Bondi Iceberg: swimming pool with ocean water

Look at the the wave..simply breathtaking!!

What a very awe-inspiring view in Bondi..

You'll love Bondi as much as I did..trust me!!=))

Bumblebee loves Bondi too!!!ehehe..

Rain

Dear Diary,

It has been raining,raining and raining again all day..and you know what happen to me during rainy day rite..It's not like I hate the rain..no!no!I just don't like the feeling inside my heart whenever I see the fresh cold water pouring from the sky..For me, falling raindrops are depicted as teardrops..Why??maybe because in my mind, I imagine that raindrops are like "teardrops-shaped"..is it true??hmm...The answer for the above question is WRONG!ehehe..okay,let me share something with you..when I was looking at the raindrops outside of my window just now, I asked myself what is the shape of them?Then I started googling for the information and I found something new for me..and might be for others too..hehe..

Well, fyi, small raindrops are nearly spherical..do I need to explain how spherical looks like??No rite..I know my diary boy is clever enough..=)) Larger raindrops become increasingly flattened on the bottom..just imagine like my favourite "Spicy Chicken McDeluxe" from McD..so, they look like burgers..and very large ones are in the form of parachutes..

Raindrops with spherical-shaped

(photo courtesy from http://people.msoe.edu )

For some people, rain metaphorically has a sad and negative implication in comparison to the bright happy sunlight..However, looking at the other side, rain can also bring joy as they are soothing or we can enjoy the artistic appeal of it..But for me, I look at the bright side of the rain..appreciating the great creation of The Al-Mighty..Thanks Allah..

Strange weather

Hello Mr Diary,

I was doing my work just now and out of the blue I feel really cold in my office..Australian weather is completely odd u know..It was extremely hot (38 degree celcius) yesterday and all of a sudden it turns out to be freezing cold (16.9 degree celcius) today..and it is showering too..haishhh..

Different type of weathers

(photo courtesy http://lingue.altervista.org )

Everyday I need to check on the weather forecast before I go out so that I'll know what to wear for that day..If not I will end up shivering because of the coldness or sweating in hotness..This is good about this strange weather as it teachs me to be an organize as well as systematic person..huahuahua!!

p/s: I miss Malaysian weather to the max!!somebody bring me back plish..now!!yes,rite now!!huhu..=(

Birthday Wish

Dear Diary,

I talked to my BF last night..and it was not a very smooth conversation tho..I don't know why I keep crying while talking to him..I told you earlier that I was soo sad being alone on a special day for me rite..I told him the same thing, hoping that he will understands..of course he did understands..thank you love..

But then, he said something..making me realize that I am very weak all this while as I rely too much on other people..(people here means my family and him only)..xtau kenape..manja sgt kot..Having heard that, I told myself to be emotianally powerful after this..I know that it's real hard for me since I was showered with double extra loves and tenderness since I was born 24 years ago..But I have to learn from now on..and this will be my birthday wish for this year indeed..Do pray for me kay my dear diary..

Dear love,
You're real special to me..
I realize that I can't do much without you..
But I promise myself not to be too dependent on you..
I'll try my best to be stronger and wiser as well..
Thanks for everything..
I love you soo much..and the love is even more now..

p/s: Note on my birthday:

1. I got a very cute bithday present from my officemate, Pearl today..thanks a lot!!=) =)
2. One more thing, I've got myself H1N1 vaccin today..it's like a birthday present for myself..good precaution..=)

My 24th Birthday

Happy Birthday to me~~~
Happy Birthday to me~~~
Happy Birthday to Amirah~~~
Happy Birthday to me~~~

"Ya Allah,terima kasih di atas nikmat umur yang dipinjamkan kepadaku..
Aku sedar yang aku masih tidak cukup amanah menggunakan anugerah umur ini dengan sebaik-baiknya..
Namun,aku masih mengharapkan ihsan daripadamu..
Redhailah perjalanan hidupku..
Berikan aku peluang untuk menambah amalan hidupku sebagai bekalan untuk hari perhitungan kelak..
Panjangkan umurku Ya Allah supaya aku dapat membalas jasa kedua ibu dan bapaku..
Jika aku ditakdirkan untuk kembali kepada-Mu, matikanlah aku di dalam Iman dan Islam..
Sesungguhnya hanya kepada-Mu tempat untuk aku memohon pertolongan..
Amin..amin..Ya Rabbal Alamin.."

~Selamat ulang tahun yang ke-24~

Tik..tok..tik..tok..

Dear Diary,

I am writing this while nervously waiting for the clock to turn into 12am in a couple of hours. It means that I'll officially be 24 yo this year..And I don't know why am I crying right now..Feeling soo sad..being away from my loved ones I guess..This is the first time in my life celebrating my birthday all alone..Before this, there will always be people that I love around me..If it is not my family, I'll have my BF with me..and I also had experience celebrating with my beloved friends..

My teary eyes

(photo courtesy from http://www.flickr.com/photos)

But now,I'm alone...It's not like I don't have friends here..No!No!There are lots of lovely people around me..It's just that they don't realize my birth date..yeah,I just met them for a few months and they still don't know much about me..same goes to me..I don't know much about them either..It doesn't really matter anyway..

Stop crying dearest heart..You're not alone..Always remember that..

Numerical results

Hye Mr Diary,

I have no idea on what I'm doing rite now.. There are lots of things on my mind..It's just that I don't know where to start..Well,I just got the solution for my numerical problem that I've been working on since 3 weeks ago I guess..But, I'm not sure whether it is correct or not.The graph looks obviously odd..sighs...

My result (urghhh,peliknye...)

I'm sure you don't understand what the ____ is going on above..I know..I know..forgive me..This is a matter of sharing..I need somebody to talk to my dear..Okay, let me explain..I'm working on a problem called numerical solution for Korteweg de Vries equation..My supervisor asked me to solve the problem using fourth order Runge-Kutta method. I'm using Maple programming in obtaining the solution..Don't ask me about the code please unless if you are ready to get drawn into those weird codes..So,here we go!!my solution is like the above graph..I'm not going to know whether this is correct or not until I show this to my supervisor in our meeting at 11am tomorrow...I hope his comment won't dissappoint me..finger cross!!=)

Weekends

Dear Diary,

Last weekend was a laidback week for me.I did nothing!!!I mean nothing related to my research..On friday night one friend came for sleepover and a few guys next door also joined us (diorang x tdo at my house ye..lepak2 je). We played card and chatted until 5 in the morning..woww!!it is considered very late for me. As a result, I woke up at 11 in the next morning..teeheee..:p Bangun je terus terbau nasik lemak..My housemate (Kak Ean) prepared a super delicious nasik lemak+ scrumptious sambal tumis ikan bilis, the best dat I ever had in Aussie..fuhhh!!finger licking good I tell you..=) The meal looks very much alike the picture below..meleleh air liur tgk..huhu..I miss Malaysian food!!!

(Picture courtesy from http://www.flickr.com/ )

After having the yummilicious meal, we spent another couple of hours chatting about life around us..then only I knew that my friend just break-off her engagement after 8 years being in relationship with her ex-fiancee..I was soo shocked to hear that but I saw her looking at the separation in a positive way..But I know, deep in her heart must be bleeding sooo badly that no medication can cure it now. But someday I hope she'll meet someone who's really fated for her.aminnn..

Actually, I do feel worry with long distance relationship sometimes..haishhh..Hey, I promised myself not to think negatively on this matter..So, leave it to Allah the Almighty. HE knows it all..If I and my BF are fated to be together, Alhamdulillah...the rest is beyond our control..think positive..think positive..=)

Things to keep myself busy

Good Afternoon Diary..=)

Sorry for not updating anything yesterday..I was quite busy and nothing much to share I guess..Well,fyi I've been selected as a new MAS UOW committee for session 2009/2010. MAS UOW stands for Malaysian Association for Student in University of Wollongong and almost all Malaysian student in this uni are officially registered as members of this club no matter they're under sponsorship program or self sponsored. I was asked to take care of the welfare of the club and I hope by joining this committee will make me become more responsible especially in managing my time. However, I hope by holding a small responsibility like this won't require much from me except when there are occasions..Ok la tu,xde la I boring sgt xde xtvt kat sini..

Owh, I emailed my supervisor just now (he's not available this week and I can just contact him thru email) asking for suggestion in graph plotting in my Maple programming. I hope he will responds by today so that I have something to make myself busy on this coming weekend. Before this I don't really work on Saturdays n Sundays. But now I do feel comfortable working on weekends since I don't have much to do at home.Hey,let me tell u a secret, in reality I only do works for a couple of hours in my office. The rest apa lagi,main internet lahh..free kan.ehehe.. :p

Lady

Assalamualaikum,

Good morning diary..I mentioned that I wanted to start writing yesterday rite..Honestly,i didn't.sighs..but I did some reading on modulation theory and i managed to cover 2 articles. It is better than nothing rite (ayat menyedapkan hati)..hehe..But today I will continue reading the remaining 4 articles and summarize each of them before I can start writing on this topic..=)

Another thing is, I didn't join the aerobic dance class that I told you I would yesterday. It was not because I don't want to..I swear!!I was really excited to go only until I realize that I forgot to wear my sport shoes to the office yesterday..double sighs...How can you join a sport activity without a proper attire rite.I brought pink baby-tee, black tight (which is suitable for aerobic dance), hair-band, minus sport shoes..haish..what a life. When we really want to do something, there'll always be another thing that'll be the obstacle..nvm, I'll still have class on Thursday..

My shoes that I forgot to wear with slightly different colour
(photo courtesy from http://www.puma.com)

Owh, back to the title for my entry today. LADY..It is a polite way of saying "woman". The word is usually reffered to a title that is used before the name of a woman who has a high position. Eg: Lady Diana. Well, last night I watched a reality TV program; Ladette to Lady (Aussie). For ur information a ladette is loud, foul-mouthed and uncultured young women, who like to drink and smoke and who are often sexually promiscious.

Example of a well groomed lady. Late Lady Diana Spencer

(Picture courtesy from http://www.casafree.com/)

In this program, a few ladettes (8 of them in last night's show) are given 5-week course on how to behave like a traditional lady. I do not want to discuss more about the classes since it will take forever to describe on how did they behave at the beginning. I will only focus on one particular thing. Okay, a laddete had been scolded because she was caught hugging a man and kissing him like they owned this world while they're at the middle of a cocktail party. The principal said, "A lady will NEVER, EVER put her arm around a man and kiss him like mad. It is simply disgusting". What I want to highlight here that, it is not only in Islam that we are prohibited to do that, but also in other cultural behaviours too. WHY?? I just want to share this and I will leave the rest for you to think..=)

Modulation Theory

Hello Bestfriend!!

This morning I came to my office with a target on what to work with for at least a couple of hours for today that is to make some reading on modulation theory. I have to gather as much information as I can (which is already inside my bright red file), digest them, come out with a proper outlines, and summing them up so that it is easy for me to refer later and at least my supervisor can easily read and understand them when it is time to show him my pile of work..

I spent 15mins to search for related articles in my file on this topic and I found six most related ones. I hope by this evening I achieve my target to read all of them or at least half of the loads.finger cross.!!hehe..

Owh btw , I forgot to let you know that I have plan to join aerobic dance class today. Hey,I can hear you laughing!!i know..i know..it's funny isn't it?? I abandoned my responsibility on taking care of my stamina since I came to Australia 3 months ago. Aerobic dance is not a new thing for me okay. I used to join the activity for quite so long before this. Three times a week at least!! But I kept my body at rest for 3months and now only I have the chance to start burning the fat again. That's why I decided to join the class. The class will be held at URAC and it is called Body Burn.

"BodyBURN is a medium intensity aerobic component, using basic moves on a STEP REEBOK platform, with a focus on sculpting & toning the lower half of the body, while working in a fat burning zone."

Picture courtesy from http://www.deportes.ozu.es/indice/Aerobic

Late

Good afternoon Mr Diary,

I just reached my office at 11.30am and for your information I walked to the uni today..Yes,walking under the bright sun!!hehe..but of course I used my favourite purple umbrella to protect me from skin pigmentation. It was not really far tho..the distance between my new house and the uni is roughly about 2km and it takes only 15mins of walking. Not very bad rite..It's just that when you have to walk in the middle of extra bright sunlight when everybody is trying to catch the bus seems quite out of usual..

Actually, I waited for the bus at 10.50am this morning hoping to catch the 10 after 11 ride. Exactly at 11.10am, I saw my favourite green Gong bus coming and get ready standing by the roadside waiting for the bus to turn to the bus stop where I was waiting. Unfortunately, the driver didn't stop at the station where I was waiting and leave me behind. sighs...But I can't blame the driver because it is very obvious that the bus was full and it is wrong for him to squeeze extra passengers inside the bus. Then, I decided to walk instead of waiting for another 20mins for the next bus to come. This is the reason why I turned out to be late today..=)

Route map for my favourite free shuttle Gong Bus
(photo courtesy from http://www.premierillawara.com.au/shuttle)

I really want to start writing today but I don't know where to start.. (writing here means my research stuffs not the one that I am doing rite now)..hehe.. I know that I have lots of things to write but I haven't even start yet. Let me make a list here so that next time I can just check on this page..

1. Modulation theory (Modulation equations for KdV equation to be exact)
2. Dispersive relation
3. Numerical solution of KdV equation (4th order Runge Kutta and Central Difference Method)
4. Initial Boundary value Problem for KdV Equation (Modified,extended,etc...)

Actually I have more things to be included in the list but these are the most important ones. I hope that I will have the courage to cover all and at least come out with something that I can be proud of by next week.. Amiinn..

"The only way to be better in writing is by writing itself "

Update

Assalamualaikum and hello to myself..=)

It has been a while since I last updated my Mr Diary..can I call this a diary?yes of course!!I mentioned that this will be a medium for me to talk to myself about anything as well as everything!!Well,let me update you Mr Diary about what is going on around. I think there are bunch of things that you need to catch up since I abandoned you for quite so long. My apologize Mr Diary..=)

In case if you didn't notice, I am no longer in my lovely hometown back in Malaysia.. I am abroad now at a new (quite isolated) place called Wollongong. Guess where it is?? Thailand? Indonesia? owh,no you're totally wrong..It is located at the south of Sydney or you can say that it is at the South Coast of New South Wales, Australia. Wollongong is in Aussie okayy!! Yes, Australia..not in Thailand , Indonesia or anywhere else.. One day I will update some photos of me and this new place okay.Now you got it?? good boy my diary..=)

Wollongong beach
(photo courtesy from http://www.flickr.com)


Famous Wollongong Lighthouse
(photo courtesy from http://www.trekearth.com/gallery/Oceania)

What am I doing here??Of course I didn't turn out to have fun here.. I am studying in University of Wollongong now..yeah,back to the student life again..Approximately, I've been here for three months and life is getting better day by day. I hope this will continue until I complete my studies after 3 years. InsyaAllah.. Please don't ask about how do I feel being apart from my loved ones in Malaysia since the answer will be my teary eyes. Then you know what's the feeling.

My university

Life as a student (full time PhD student to be exact) is not easy. People might think that it is simple since you don't need to focus on other things except for your studies. But actually it is NOT. What makes life becomes harder is when you have to be really independent and manage your little given time wisely. This involves your own attitude. Nobody will force you to do this or that, but you have to ask yourself to do it for you. Yeah maybe other people would say that it is good coz you don't have to deal with deadlines or scary boss. But for me it is definitely not like what people can imagine. Put yourself in this situation then you will know. But to comfort myself, I will say that nothing in this world is easy. No matter you're a PhD student, lecturer, engineer, medical Dr, lawyer or anybody else. The thing is how you manage your own time. Pray that I will end this nightmare as soon as possible so that I can go back and serve my country as a lecturer in Universiti Sains Malaysia. Amiinnn...=)